Sincerely, Akmar

fuh fuh

2012-01-31T06:14:00.000+08:00

fuhh fuhh *tiup habuk* okay, dah berhabuk tebal blog ini. Haha. Okay, I admit it. I'm a lazy bum bum. Malas nak kisah pasal blog ni dah actually. Tapi tiba-tiba today, rasa nak write something, somehow I have no specific topic to write on actually. Anyways, last tulis kat blog ni was like middle of October?! So kite dah lepas, Raya Haji, mother and father dah balik dari Haji berbulan lamanya, then kite dah lepas, Maal Hijrah. Then we've celebrated New Year and the latest is; Chinese had celebrated Chinese New Year. See, how long have I neglected this blog. Haha.

So I've finished my first semester for Degree. Degree isn't that bad actually. Even though, I had to mix with new classmates but I did have fun and yes, of course, it was a tense semester, as most of my classmates are nerds. Like study for twenty-seven. Oh gosh. Book here and there. Library yesterday, today, tomorrow. Oh man, so I was being me. I did follow them to the library. But hurmm, this is Akmar. I study for like half & hour, then I couldn't concentrate anymore. :( Only if I could give full attention.. I wouldn't have any problems to answer my finals. Anyhow, what's past is past. No point of nagging pun kan.. Just that I wish I could change my attitude by giving full attention like how my friends did when they study. Okay, that was a bit about my studies, I guess.

Oh, yeah, kini I dah berubah. I mean, appearance la. I sekarang dah pakai tudung. I started wearing hijab, masa Maal Hijrah. It was a big thing for me. Me changing to a new phase. And seriously, I was so scared-nervous-anxious-etc bile pakai tudung, cause I was afraid of what people might say. Alhamdulillah, I managed to pull it off. I pegi college dengan perasaan yang gementar yg amat la sangat, but then I got positive feedbacks from my friends. Alhamdulillah sgt to that. :) People were actually happy to see my change. Mama and Abah was also supportive. Mama pass me her tudung, Abah belanje me new tudung. Alhamdulillah again. I can say that, wearing hijab isn't that bad after all. I am still me, just that I had to be more graceful, pastu I had to be commited towards my aurat. Tapi kadang- kadang tu I keluar still pakai short sleeve. I'm trying to change, and I believe it takes time. One at a time.. InsyaAllah, after this, I try not to wear short sleeve, or if I do wear short sleeve, I'll make sure, I put on hand socks, to cover my arms. InsyaAllah.

Okay la, till here only maaaa. Byebye

betul betul terlupa nak update blog. dah October lah

2011-10-19T03:02:00.001+08:00

Ehe. Hi all. Lama sgt kan tak update blog ni. Bukan ape, terlupa daa. *like anyone's looking forward for my update kann* Just wanna say that blog ni makin lama makin berkurang entry die, because I'm getting lazier to write. Anyways, nak cakap ni, now we're in the middle of October already. Guess what, it's already a month I'm in Shah Alam. Andddd, I haven't found anything interesting here. Maybe sebab every weekend balik kan. Then weekdays, busy with classes and balik class je tired. Then nak buat tutorials and all. Mmg kekurangan masa. everything's in a rush.

Oh yeah, for your information, my convocation is end of this month ie 31 October. Memang hari last kan. Too bad, mother and father is not here to celebrate together. Mereka telah pergi menunaikan haji. Their flight was on 12 October. *hoping you guys pray that mother and father would have a safe journey, selamat pergi dan pulang. Amin* Since, mother and father pergi haji, I'm in charge of paying all the payments. Perghh, terasa so independent. Yeayy! dah boleh jadi Miss independent kannn. :D

Oh yeah, a bit about my studies, #wow. Mcm blur pun ade juga, lecturer ajar macam laju sangat. No wonder all the seniors and even my cousins and brother said that Degree ni susah. I join the club kate Degree ni susah oi. Everything's on your own. It's like "kau nak pandai kau kena usaha lebih" in which get your own notes, meaning search and find notes, tak pun, give full attention during lecture. And, that is the most difficult thing for me to do, sebab masuk je class I ngantuk, bile mengantuk je I dalam class. -__-" haa, macam tu la. Tapi still la, belajar is still better than working. Not ready to enter the job world. A no no to that for the time being. When you study you feel so youthful. Macam enjoy eventhough you pressure. :D Yang hilangkan stress is when you spend time with friends and merepek-ing. A yes to that!! *eh banyak pulak dah tulis ni, excited kot, sebab lama tak tulis. Ehe*

Okaylah, I wanted to write more, but I'm sleepy. It's already 3am in the morning. *#nowlistening Back To December* Gottogo. Byebye. Till then. :)

sekarang emotions mmg tak menentu.

2011-09-25T18:02:00.000+08:00

Lama dah tak blogging. Oh mann, now I mcm tak taw how I feel. I can be happy at a minute then sad the next minute. Jiwa I tak tenteram. There's so much things playing on my head. And yeah, orang may not see it because I don't usually express how I feel. You might see me as cheerful, happy and all but actually I'm not. When I'm alone I jadi anxious, sad and mcm tak tenteram. I tried to search why I was sad and all, and I found it, just that it was all so blurly. It was like questions with so many 'WHAT IFs..'. So in order to make sure that I'm not in a worried condition. I mixed up with friends. Time tu je la I can try to ease my mind, but hey, those problems are still rapidly playing on my head.

Now as I'm writing this thing. I sangat sedih actually. I rasa macam nak nangis sangat- sangat. Bile I tak tenteram orang kata ambil wuduk and solat. I buat tu jgk. If tak boleh jugak I should baca Yassin. So I akan cuba buat these two things. I nak nangisss. ;'( *okay mata dah berair T_T *

I tak berapa suka dengan apa yang I rasa sekarang ni. I want to be happy without any worries. But somehow when I think again. There's this point in your life, where you'd feel so lonely even though there's so many people around you, supporting you. Masa ni, all you need is just some time alone. Untuk clear up your mind and plan things. Besides you're trying to make sure things go the way you want them to be. InsyaALLAH. I pray each single day. May Allah give some peace in my mind and hoping that things turn out to be how I planned it. InsyaALLAH.

september dah la.

2011-09-04T03:55:00.000+08:00

Mak aihhh, dah September kan.. Perghh, laju nya, masa main lari- lari. Dah tak larat nak kejar ni. -,-

So, hi there September, howdoyoudo? *lame* Okay, since September is here, means, makin dekat untuk I bakal menempuh alam baru, which is I akan pursue my studies for degree pula. Degree I akan buat kat UiTM Shah Alam. Quite near to my house which is good. :) So the new semester starts (to be exact is) on 12 September. Nak dekat dah. I'm excited, scared at the same time but still looking forward. Macam #mixedemotions. InsyaAllah bakal bertemu dengan rakan- rakan seperjuangan yang di Penang. Rindu juga kat mereka. Tu je la kot September.

So, nak review what happened in August. Berpuasa selama sebulan. 30 August dah raya pertama, which means September tak sempat masuk kita dah raya dulu. *takde kena mengena pun September dengan raya kan?* Boleh dikatakan Ramdan yang agak mencabar pernah I lalui selama hidup 21 tahun ni. Macam- macam terjadi. Hanya Allah tahu perasaan I bile kenangkan Ramdan kembali. Apa-apa pun semua dah kembali normal dah. I dah mula nampak jalan yang benar. InsyaAllah semua akan baik- baik belaka. :)

Tu je la. Again, Selamat Hari Raya, Maaf Zahir dan Batin.

I tak sehebat dia!

2011-09-04T03:37:00.002+08:00

Sebelum nak merepek dalam entry ni, I nak wish. Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri. Minta ampun dan maaf dari hujung rambut ke hujung kaki, andai I pernah menyinggung perasaan kamu semua samada sengaja atau tidak sengaja. I manusia biasa yang tak lari dari melakukan kesilapan. Apa- apa pun, I maafkan segala kesalahan kamu semua dengan I if ada la kan. :) Let's forgive and forget. It's better that way. We can just go on and enjoy our lives. Okay, ayat wajib, maaf zahir dan batin. ;)

Alright, tak nak mengata atau apa- apa pun. Just ter-emo tak tentu pasal. Don't worry, ni just entry untuk nak sedapkan hati I sendiri. Well, nak remind myself in the future, manalah tahu kan, nanti tengah down- down ke, pastu baca entry ni terus jadi okay ke kan. Well, it all begins in a quiet early morning. I online as usual, but the thing that I hate bile I online lama- lama is I akan stalk orang. ~,~ (I ni jenis yang selalu online guna handphone je, guna laptop nak online tu bile ada kerja or memang nak mengadap laptop for such a longgg time.) I know, buat benda (stalking) tu jahat. But guess what I macam suke stalk orang. And I kept reminding myself not to stalk, because after I did some research (on my own), I found that, "the more I stalk, the more I get jealous and hurt *atau yang sewaktu dengannya*. Fyi, I stalk everyone. Like everyone I tell you. Kalau I rasa orang tu macam best untuk nak stalk and I pun akan stalk.

So here's the thing, bile I dah stalk, I tahu so much things yang orang try to hide or memang I tak perlu tahu things. Then mulalah I fikir macam- macam yang sangat macam-macam. I pun fikir I ni loser la apa lah, semualah. Meh la, senang nak cakap, bile I dah stalk I rasa yang...

I ni tak se-HOT dia.
I ni bukan la lawa sangat yang banyak lelaki nak suka- menyukai
I ni tak se-cool macam dia.
Wall kat Facebook I tak da la berderet lelaki nak wish itu ini; ambil berat pasal I.
I ni tak la se-kurus melidi macam dia.
I tak dress up nicely or vogue macam dia.
Ayat I ni takda la se-canggih ayat dia.
I ni memang la orang paling noob dalam dunia.
I ni orang yang paling membosankan.
I ni tak se-manja dia.
I ni tak ramai pun yang nak 'LIKE' gambar I; puji comel ke cantik ke apa- apalah.
I ni tak se-kaya dia.
I ni makan banyak dari dia.
I ni loser tahap apa pun I tak tahu.
Muka I ni tak se-licin dia.
I takda boyfriend banyak macam dia.
Kawan perempuan I tak sebanyak macam dia.
I tak hang out tempat cool- cool.
Aktiviti harian I tak se-fun dia.
Hidup I ni macam asyik TV je, walhal dia hang out dengan kawan semua sana- sini.
I tak tangkap gambar comel-comel macam dia.
I tak pakai make up macam dia.
I ni tak se-pandai dia.
English I tak the bomb macam dia. (Alaa alaa, mat saleh minah saleh gitu.)
I ni takde siapa pun yang teringin nak jumpa.
I ni takda siapa yang nak miss- miss pun (kecuali lah, cousins or siblings, itu pun kalau ada. Yanngg adooo!)
Blog I ni pun siapalah baca kan. BORINGGG! Lain lah dia, followers ramai tu!
ahhh, banyak sangat lagi kalau nak list out the things that I feel.

*** 'dia' might refer to anyone, tak kisah la lelaki atau perempuan. I kan stalk semua orang (even siblings sendiri)

Well, actually, I tak boleh terasa, kan? I yang cari pasal nak stalk, so be it! Feel the pain. Ehehe. And yes, I get it, stalking is not good for my soul. Haha. But above all those things that I feel, somehow I still masih bersyukur, I'm grateful and glad just to be me. I'm happy just being this way. Like a saying goes, everything happens for a reason, so there's a hidden reason to why Allah tak bagi I ada all those traits. Kann. Memang I bersyukur, I jadi diri I hari ni, sebab I takde those traits. But somehow I still nak change myself to be a better person. Tak nak la tak maju langsung. There are things I should consider in changing for my own's sake. :)

this is what jobless-boring-home-person do. :)

2011-08-18T22:18:00.001+08:00

Ececeh, mentang-mentang lah die pernah kerja kan, sekarang ni bile tak kerja dah, dah pandai ye die, panggil diri die sendiri pengangur (betul ke eja ni O.o) Ekekeke. :D

Ahhh never mind. What's on my mind right now which I feel like blurting out is... I DAH PANDAI CUCI/ SIANG/ BERSIHKAN AYAM!! *whichever you guys say it* hahaha. Mesti kata "Hakeleyh die ni, boleh cuci ayam pun nak berlagak, kecoh lebih". Memang memang, I ni kecoh, takpe, I suke kecoh- kecoh. So what.. Well, actually, it's something yang quite impressive. Sebab before this I tak pernah cuci ayam, kalau cuci pun, cuci ayam yang memang dah bersih sebab mother always suruh double wash ayam before cooking it. And yeah, I cuci ayam tu without guidance. Mother was so tired. Father took home the chicken like 11.30pm at night. So mother dah tak larat, and I offered myself to wash it while mother slept at the hall because she was awaken when father got home. Then letak la segala asam jawa, so that ayam tu tak hanyir. Then kejut mother sebab die kata nak goreng ayam. And to my suprise, mother tak complain langsung about the chicken, it must be really cleaned and mencapai tahap piawaian kebersihan ayam to mother's perspective. Muahaha. Banggekan *man, you're lame Akmar* =.="

So next on the list for kerja yg I buat is memasak. Ok fine, bukan la masak sgt pun, just tolong kacau je. Ekekeke. Mother tak kasi I masak. So I just boleh kacau or kupas la segala bawang, alaa bahan nak masak. Tu je la. Anyhow, I still know how to cook, I mean, the way to cook a dish. Sbb by looking you actually can learn. :) For the time being, I dah tahu masak ayam goreng. Muahahaha. *alaa senang je pun (mesti ckp cmtu kan), amik kunyit, letak garam sikit, then panas minyak, letak ayam, then tunggu sehingga masak* pastu I tahu masak ayam masak lemak cili api, *my favorite*, sambal tumis *ni mmg dah pro, since duduk rumah sewa with dearest housemates* :D ada lah lagi few dishes. Tp not so much. Tak pe, perlahan perlahan. :)

Next kerja is, mengemas, haaa, ni kerja untuk hilang bosan. Kemas la kan bilik adik, then kemas bilik sendiri *in which tak siap lg*, then cuci-cuci dapur sikit. Haa, tu je lah.

Pastu, yang ni memang kerja wajibal ghunnah. Ekeke. Angkat kain, lipat kain, basuh pinggan, main dengan kucing, (O.o) kadang-kadang je basuh kain. Heee.

Tak habis lagi, ada lagi kerja yg I buat, ni kerja yg paaaalllllliiiiiiiiiiinnnnnnnngggggggg I suke. Facebooking, tweeting, watching tv takpun tgk movie. Haaa. Ini kerja tak payah suruh pun, mmg I rela hati buat. Muahaha.

Haaa, itu je la keja I buat kat rumah, bosan kan, tapi sebenarnye, I rase mcm best ade, malas ade, semua lah ade. Bak kata trending dlm Twitter; #mixedemotions. Ekekek. XD

dah ade boyfriend?!

2011-08-08T01:21:00.000+08:00

Haaa, look look look at the title for this post. Obviously, ni mesti pasal boyfriend thingy kan. Yes, exactly!! Bijak! So, ni lah soalan yang macam I dah tak larat nak jawab. Boring.. *yawn*

Senang cakap la kan, the answer to the question above is "No, I don't have a boyfriend". Okay, faham kan, I takde boyfriend. Malu tak takde boyfriend? "Tak la, tak malu pun takde boyfriend. Biase je perasaan die. :)"

Alright, soalan ni actually haunts me, bile I found a new friend ke, or meet up with old friends, ni lah soalan yang akan pop up! Haha. Lucu kan. I tak kisah kalau orang tanya soalan ni actually, but then I don't like benda tambahan yang orang akan cakap bile tahu I takde boyfriend. Usually orang akan cakap "Tipu, tipulah takde boyfriend!" Oh mann, why should I lie, it so happen that I don't have a boyfriend at the moment, so cakap la takde, takkan I nak tipu kata ade kot. =.=" I'm not desperate to tell the whole world that I'm in a relationship. Besides, kalau I tipu kata ade, lelaki mana I nak rembat cakap yang die boyfriend I. Haha. Lawak bukan.

So, senang kata at the moment I memang not in a relationship. Tapi kalau I ade sekali pun, I takkan jugak heboh kat semua member member I kate I dah ade boyfriend. Kalau mereka tanya then only I answer, yang pasti I tak nak kecoh kecoh la, takut nanti break up, haha, free free je orang gelakkan. :D But hey, eventhough I'm not in a relationship it doesn't mean yang I ni tak nak in a relationship ke ape. Cume right now I nak focus kat diri I dulu sekejap. Nak betul kan diri dulu, then only think of these things. And right now, I tengah getting know a few guys actually, it's all because I don't want the same thing happen to me again. :) So this time I better watch out. :)

August

2011-08-08T00:48:00.001+08:00

Baru nak post pasal August. Mannn, you're so slow la Akmar. Alaa, that day masa update about Ramadan terlupa pulak nak update pasal August. Mintak maaf. :)

1st August hari tu, seperti everyone pun tahu. Ramadan starts, which means, umat Islam akan berpuasa selama sebulan sehingga la Syawal tiba. Jadi, kite haruslah berpuasa ye rakan- rakan -__-" Duhhh.. Baiklah, since Syawal is on the way, means persiapan raya pun is on the way juga la kan. Well, I was thinking of having a simple raya celebration je, that is, I'll try not to spend too much on clothing. Previous years, macam semangat beli baju raya semua kan. But, I can't promise. Die macam bile pergi shopping tu, bile abah tanya nak ke tak nak, macam susah nak cakap tak nak. Hahaha. XD Somehow, this year, nak control nafsu so that tak shop too much. And try to say NO! :) Baju kurung dah tempah. Itu perkara biasa lah kan, kalau nak raya je, baju kurung tu kena tempah like 1 month earlier, kalau tidak tailor tak nak terima dah. So, baju kurung tu, biarlah auntie tailor tu yang selesaikan. :)

Apa lagi eh, this August. Oh yeah. I dah quit! Haha. Heaven sangat. Just lepaking kat rumah and do those chores yg mak ask me to do which is kinda a lot. Ah never mind, as long as I can stay home, that is just fine with me. Guess that's the only thing I can think of for August. Anything interesting might just happen and I'll go with the flow.

Alright, looking back in July. I had the normal-working-day-thingy which obviously is boring, because there weren't much customers at the beginning of the month. Parkson mcm kosong. Enough said. But as time goes by, bile nak akhir July then only, big sales coming to us! Yeah, I was actually having fun selling handbags and meeting customers. I also had my own customer, in which they remembered me as the ones whom served them before. Mase tu seronok sebab you feel appreciated. :) Masa July jgk, one of the benda yang I hated happened to me. Gaji I masuk sgt sgt lah lambat. The 5th week baru masuk gaji. I'm like what the heck kannn?! Tapi okay la. everything was kinda nice and smooth in July.

okay la, ni je la. byebye. :)

Ramadhan kembali lagi. :)

2011-08-01T00:00:00.000+08:00

Hmm, title atas terang-terang kata bulan Ramadhan dah tiba. Alhamdulillah. Insya-Allah tak lama lagi jumpa pulak bulan Syawal. Hari raya weyhhh! :D

So, Akmar Arif ni haa, nak wish all Selamat menyambut Bulan Ramadhan, semoga kite mendapat keberkatan dan diredhai dariNya.

Actually this is the first time kalau tak silap I, I start my first day of puasa dekat rumah within these 3 last years. Selama ni sambut Ramadhan di perantauan. Ececeeh. ;) So, kali ni, Ramadhan serba serbi excited jgk la kan. Hehe.

Pastu mcm ingat nak bertarawikh. Tp mmg tak blh penuh la kan, biase lah, perempuan. :D Ape ape pun, akan sedaya upaya untuk nak bertarawikh jugak la. Pastu nak kawal nafsu makan jugak. Bukak puase tu takde la baham semua makanan. Nak kena control. I am in need to be slim. Like IN NEED!! Dah gemuk sangat dah ni. Macam haishh sedih nak cakap owh, macam macam... ahhh tak nak sebut. Malu. Ramai kata dah gemuk. Tidakkkk!!

Apa lagi, tu je la kot, so selamat berpuase, bersahur dan berbuka. Jom kite menuju kejayaan. :)

tibe-tibe jd mcm ni.. :P

2011-07-22T01:10:00.003+08:00

Okay seriously, *hmm, Idk how to start* alrite, fine. Mcm ni la.. I have become heartless. I dah mcm takde perasaan towards guys at the moment. Nak I katakan, I bukan lessy ke ape. I'm still straight. I still adore guys, cume skrg mcm takde mood nak fall or like any guy, sbb I malas nak rase terluka lg. So whatever about this thing. I'm getting stronger each day. Lelaki yg I used to be with pun dah move on, so should I. Now, I'm on my way to know much more guys. Maybe, I akan nmpk more mcm flirting with banyak lelaki. So, who cares pun kan! But actually, I bukan nak flirt or anything. I just berkawan dengan everyone and kenal hati budi semua orang. Tp, if ade a gentleman yg dah boleh buka or change how I feel. I would definitely say yes to him. Indeed, yes, I will. And I would love him with all my heart. Muacks.. :-*

Before I end, ade pantun I karang pasal benda ni. Maybe it sounds kinda stupid, at least ada pantun kan. Pantun ni macam pop out of my mind. So here it is..

Buat masa ini,

saya tak nak suka mana mana lelaki,

sbb saya tak mahu terluka lagi,

tapi saya pasti,

suatu hari nanti,

saya akan jatuh hati lagi,

pada seorang lelaki,

yang baik hati serta sudi menerima diri ini.

FUYOOOHH!! Kannn, cool owh! XD

Okay lah, bye. bye.Till then. :)

mama anak mama dah besar. :)

2011-07-12T00:59:00.001+08:00

Tajuk atas jelas kata yg I ni dah besar panjang (bak kata orang-orang dulu). Ececech. Okay, anak mama mungkin dah besar tapi dah cukup berdikari ke? Hmm, tu jom kita tengok;

Dulu masa kecil mama selalu tanya dah mandi ke belum. Skrg mama dah tak tanya. Kadang-kadang tak mandi pun anak die -__-' Mandi sekali sehari sebab duduk rumah. Kalau keluar je baru mandi lebih sekali. Masa kecil, keluar tak keluar ke WAJIB mandi at least 2 kali sehari. Kalau tak mandi no tv.
Dulu masa kecil mama selalu suapkan makan. Beratur tiga beradik makan. Tak makan tak boleh tgk tv. Sekarang makan sendiri. Kadang - kadang mama tak masak, mama kasi duit pergi la beli makan sendiri kat luar. Makan la McD ke ape ke yang boleh kasi perut ni kenyang.
Dulu masa kecil mama selalu marah sebab tak kemas bilik; bilik bersepah. Dah besar pun mama still marah sebab tak kemas bilik jugak. Haha.
Dulu masa kecil mama risau anak mama makan ke tak. Sampai sekarang kalau mama call je, benda utama mama tanya. "Dah makan belum?". Kadang - kadang anak mama tak makan lagi pun cakap dah makan sebab takut mama risau.
Dulu masa kecil kalau nak pergi mana-mana semua mama atau abah bawakan. Tapi sekarang cakap je kat mama, anak mama amik kunci kereta drive sendiri pergi tempat tu.
Dulu masa kecil, mama selalu tanya pasal kerja sekolah. Pastu kalau tak tahu buat mama akan ajar kan, bile nak test or exam kadang-kadang tu mama ajar kalau tak faham. Sekarang mama tanya pasal test or exam punya result je, kalau nak tanya mama pasal pelajaran pun mungkin mama dah tak terror sebab tak sama bidang.
Dulu masa kecil, mama susah nak lepas kasi keluar dengan kawan. Sekarang boleh dah keluar dengan kawan cuma tak boleh balik lambat je la. :)
Dulu masa kecil, mama selalu suruh anak mama tidur tepat 10:00 malam. Tapi sekarang anak mama tidur pukul berapa pun, anak mama sendiri tak tahu. Tidur ikut suke hati. Tapi mama selalu bebel tak kasi anak dia tidur lambat.
Dulu masa kecil, mama tak kisah kalau anak dia bangun lambat tapi sekarang kalau anak dia bangun lambat mama akan bebel, katanya "Tak elok anak dara tidur bangun lambat-lambat."
Dulu masa kecil, anak mama tak pernah buat kerja rumah contohnya basuh pinggan, lipat kain, gosok baju, etc, tapi sekarang semua anak mama dah tahu buat, cuma kadang - kadang anak mama malas. Ehe. :D
Dulu masa kecil, mama yang pilih kan baju bila pergi shopping, sekarang anak mama nak pilih sendiri. Fashion itu ini, tapi still kena tunjuk kat mama, sebab mama nak approve dulu baju tu. :)
Banyak lagi perubahan yang ada dalam hidup anak mama nak dibandingkan dengan masa anak mama kecil. Tapi yang pasti sampai sekarang mama still tanya kalau anak mama dah solat atau belum. Kalau belum jawapan nya, pasti mama akan bebel. :) Ehe.

I think I've changed!

2011-07-09T01:45:00.000+08:00

The second posts for today as I still have the mood to type. Regarding on the title for this post, I can say that as day goes by I'm changing to someone different. Well, it might not be drastic but still I'm changing. I'm not sure for better to worst or for worst to better. But, what I can see in me is that I'm going towards to the better person but still there are also towards the bad change.

I'm not as pampered as before. I still do talk a lot and yeah there are some gossips here and there (which I'm trying to minimize and soon stop gossiping about the others. InsyaAllah). Not trying to be proud or anything. It's just I think as I'm getting mature (older) I kinda think more about my future. Bila, I get to know someone's life I jadi takut if someday I akan terkena macam tu or anak I yang kena.. It scares me, it really does.

And oh, I kept thinking about my parents. It's like there's so many questions popping outta my head such as can-I-take-care-of-my-parents? can-I-get-them-what-they-want(wish for)? can-I-be-a-good-daughter? all sorts of things. I don't wanna disappoint my parents. I want them to be proud of me and look up on me. We might not know what's gonna happen in there future. But all I wish for is I can be what they want me to be. Not saying that I'm not given a chance to choose my own path or anything. Just an obedient daughter whom they are not ashamed to call their daughter. Anyways, all parents love their children regardless of what their children have become (melainkan kalau anak tu dah derhaka ke ape ke kan). Eh, apasal I jadi all emotional ni..

Pastu kalau I tengok all my old posts, I use to put pictures sorta things, now it's just words. I macam dah tak nak orang tengok I sangat. Kenapa jadi macam tu? I pun tak tahu. I think I'm getting bored. I'm getting less interesting.

And I'm losing all the people that I once loved, liked or adored. I can't seem to be true to myself about how I feel about someone. It's like this, I suka someone and yet I don't wanna admit it. I get all down-to-earth feeling macam I don't deserve that person because I'm a loser. I rasa macam I'm not suitable to be friend with this someone just because their charming, pretty, clever, rich etc. I feel like, I don't have all those things so I SHOULD not be their friend. Dulu, I wasn't like this. I get along with anyone easily. Either they're rich or normal, they're handsome or ugly etc. But now. I'm a loser. That's what I feel. And I know this is not a good change.

Guess I stop here for now. I might continue, I'm tired as I woke up early. So gotta sleep now. If, I'm not busy. This will be continue in another post.

July babeyh it's July already.

2011-07-09T01:07:00.000+08:00

Yes, we have entered July. Sorry for not updating for quite some time. Well, macam ni kes die. Semangat nak update tu mmg ade, but then bile nak update je ade je something yang akan turn off the mood. At last, I would cancel niat untuk update. Tapi kali ni macam dah azam nak update jugak walau ape pun yang terjadi since lama sangat rasanya tak update blog yang makin menjadi bosan ni. Ehe. Anyways, takde sape pun kisah, kalau blog ni tak di-update. Tapi takpe la, update jugak, kalau tak nak update baik tutup or delete je blog ni, kan senang cerita. Okay, to any of you yang nak tahu la any new updates about my life. Hmm, sekarang ni dah July. Like duhhhh, semua orang tahu la dah July.. Kan kan. So what? Aha.

Okay, serius! Looking forward juga for July, bile habis je July ni, perasaan mungkin akan menjadi agak gembira, sebab nak dekat berhenti kerja. Yahooo! Okay dah malas dah nak kerja. Malas sangat, nak lepak rumah je and do abso-bloody-lutely NOTHING! Ehe. Mungkin akan just buat some normal chores macam those laundry thingy, then clean the house.. Okay senang cakap those housewives-chores tu, except cooking. Oh yaa, as July is finishing we'll be entering August in which Ramadhan is here again. InsyaAllah bakal berjumpa dengan Ramadhan soon. Can't wait. I love Ramadhan. One of the Islamic months that I like! :) Since mase tu dah quit my job, niat di hati nak bertarawikh la during Ramadhan buat amal ibadah sikit. InsyaAllah. Ye la, makin dewasa, I macam nak lebih dekatkan diri dengan Allah. Like what people always say, makin tua ni, makin dekat kita dengan ajal. So, anyways. Ramadhan tu insyaAllah.

Alrite, now we're talking about July kan. Let's focus on July. Well, basically tak ada apa pun. Benda boring je pun, balik kerja, makan, tidur, makan, pergi kerja. Alaaa, those things you buat bila dah bekerja. Bosan kan. It's like you buka mata get ready for work, then you sleep after tired of working. -__-" And yeah, lupa pulak, sekarang ni, I macam dah banyak kawan jugak la kat Parkson tu, okay, I admit mostly are guys. Takpe la, mereka yang sudi kawan dengan I. So kawan je la. Tapi, bila fikir balik, nanti nak pergi Parkson macam malu sikit sebab macam ramai yang kenal. Malu lah. Hehe. Hmm, tak kisah la kan, kata HOT!! HAHAHA. BAJETT!

Okaayyyyyy!! June macam mana eh, reviews, June okay je. There was my birthday. So, I had a great birthday, great gifts. Everything went fine. Super fine June. Not forgetting, went back to Penang untuk clearance. And goshh, I miss Penang so much. Tak sangka akan miss Penang like sooooo much. Tapi terubat rindu kat Penang bila dah visit even for a while. 2 days and 1 night trip. It was tiring, fun, and experiencing (ada ke?). Anyhow, it was yeah-fun-trip! What else? Oh yeaah, my sale had increase compared to May. And I was getting even better to push people for buying my handbag. Ehe. Improvement there. Yeay!! :)) Rasanya tu je la untuk June. Dah macam tak boleh nak fikir apa dah. Tu je la kot. Bye.

things you should know about me tu pun kalau nak tahu la, kalau tak nak, takpe lah, ignore je..

2011-06-21T18:46:00.000+08:00

Like a saying goes, don't judge a book by it's cover. So, this entry is basically about me. To those yang tak kenal I sangat, maybe they could know a bit about me.

I ni suka gelak. Ye, memang suke gelak. I tahu gelak bukannya elok sgt kan.. Tp, nak buat mcm mana mmg dah suke. Gelak kadang- kadang dapat release kan tension I.
I kawan dengan semua org, so I cukup tak suke bile org tuduh I, kate I ni memilih kawan. Kate I ni kawan dgn org yg hot-hot lah, hensem-hensem lah, pandai-pandai, cantik-cantik, etc.. Tak suke! Kalau you nak kawan dgn I, come and tegur la. I don't mind. I love making new friends. Tp I mmg tak pandai nak mula dulu. Because I agak malu nak mula. So don't expect me to say hi to you. I bukan sombong, tp that's my nature.
I don't really like org yg nak kawan dgn I tapi suruh org lain yg kenal kan, kire mcm ade org tgh la. Naaah, tak best la mcm tu, like I said before, nak kwn you approach je la, I tak kisah.
I'm a bored person kalau you tak kenal I, sbb I akan diam dengan org yg I tak rapat or kenal. (tu normal la kan, you won't be talkative bile you just get to know a person). Tp bile I dah lama or rase you satu kepala dgn I, I akan mule banyak ckp. I can talk about anything.
I suke merepek bile bercakap.
I fikir about so many thing. Including lame things.
I'm so curious about what people may think of me.
Most people say that I'm childish and not serious. I tak kisah. But when I'm serious, I'll be damn serious. Hilang segala gelak tawa I.
I ni kepoh, I suke gossip, tp I gossip mostly about myself. Jaranglah I talk about others. Tp I admit, I do talk about others. I gossip dgn org yg I rapat je.
I senang percaya kan org. So, selalu lah tipu I sbb I akan percaya. Bile you tipu I, ayat yang you akan dapat is "Siot ahh tipu. Kurang ajar". Itu je lah.
I jarang mencarut or cursing. Sbb I tak berapa suke. Tp I ade jgk curse, mcm "shit, damn, bodoh, sial, etc" tp yg selalu is "shit".
I ni tak la baik mana pun, biase-biase je.
I pun tak alim mana, tp I akan sedaya upaya jaga solat, puase, tingkah laku I or anythng yg berkenaan dgn agama. Tp, I tak pakai tudung. InsyaAllah suatu hari nnti..
I belanje org yg tak suke mintak-mintak dibelanje, sbb kalau you mintak I belanje you I rase rimas, terus I jadi malas nak belanje you. Kalau I feel like treating you, I akan terus ckp I nak belanje you. I tak la kedekut mana. Tp bile you mintak-mintak I rase I ni cop duit pula. So no offense. :))
I'm a good listener and also a good advicer. Well, some people says that. Tp when it comes to my turn, I seek for people advises and I tell them my stories. So, if you have any problem, I'd be my pleasure to lend you my ears.
I don't really tell the same person everythg about me. Maksudnye, cerita I merata-rata, I tak cerita pada org yg sama. Sbb I takut kalau org tu tahu everythg about me, nnti he or she will use it against me. But, I tell my problems or stories to the people I trust. The people that I trust is not necessarily the people that I'm close with. But, there's this 1 person yg I tell everythg. She's my sister, my soulmate.
I keep a lot of people's secret. Tp I never tell anyone about that person's secret. Bagi I, if someone says something is confidential, it remains that way.
I suke tgk wayang.
I tak minat pada korean thingy atau yg sekutu dgn nye, tp I tgk je la kalau you ajak, sbb tak nak disappoint you.
I rase I ni byk sgt jaga hati org smpai kadang-kadang org sakit kan hati I pun I mengalah.
Some people say, I ni lantang. Means I say what I feel like saying. If I don't like something you do to me, I akan ckp kat you. But, in a good and mannerly way, I tak de la tengking-tengking or anything.
I cry for the most simplest thing. Mcm kalau benda hilang pun I boleh menangis -_-"
I cepat gelabah. I byk fikir negative bile I buat somethng wrong. I akan jadi tak tenteram.
I prefer talking with guys. So jgn terkejut kalau I byk ckp dgn lelaki.
I easily like a guy, but it really takes a big thing for me to fall for a guy. But, bile I dah suke a guy, I won't show that guy that I like him. Sbb I rase I tak layak utk diaorg.
I'm an ego person. Ni I tak pasti sgt, but most guys and girlfriends I know, ckp I ego. Even guys yg I baru kenal pun ckp I mcm tu -_-" Soo, I guess I mmg ego lah. Sorry, if I'm too ego.
I suke makan, tp I agak memilih bab makanan. Mesti pelik kan, even I memilih makanan, I tetap gemuk mok. HAHA.
I ni bukan la excellent dlm study, biase-biase je. Bukan genius ape ke benda nye. Tp kalau nak mintak ajar boleh je. I suke jgk ajak org. Tp I agak garang bile ajar org.
Oh, ckp pasal garang. I ni agak garang jgk tahu. Tp I tak la cepat melenting. I'm cool. Cool as the ice. *teringat reka ayat ngeng ni with a friend*

Hmmm, I dapat fikir tu je lahh. Nak list byk sgt pun, mcm too revealing pula. So kena la keep skit, if org dah kenal I sgt pun tak seronok jgk la. Haaa, last-last,

I prefer knowing someone, one to one rather than through phone or social networking. Because for me, getting to know a person lively kire mcm org tu susah nak tipu I.. Besides, I love meeting people in person. Mcm best!! :))

hari ini umur saya sudah 21 tahun

2011-06-21T17:05:00.000+08:00

So yes, I'm officially 21 years old. So sepatutnya, saya ni boleh dikatakan matanglah kan. Ahaa. Gelak pada statement itu. Ramai teman rapat kata I still tak matang matang lagi. Cesss. Matang lah.. I sekarang dah fikir macam orang matang tahu.

Okay, so pasti orang akan buat wish masa birthday dia. Memang macam-macam yang saya wish kan. Semoga saya panjang umur dan menggunakan masa dengan baik, keluarga saya bahagia, saya dalam keadaan sihat, ahhh macam-macam lah lagi. Malas pula nak list it out.

Tapi yang betul betul nak is nak kurus. Miahaha. Dari dulu wish benda ni tapi tak capai-capai. Heshh, bila la boleh kurus kan! HAHA. Pastu, kalau boleh saya nak jadi lebih berani. Maksud berani tu macam dapat buat apa yang I mahukan. Macam kalau I nak buat sesuatu tu macam I buat la. Bukan setakat cakap dalam hati pastu simpan biar berhabuk je dalam kepala ni. Haha. Tapi tu wish je, buat nya belum tentu lagi. Haaa, kan dah nampak saya tak berani kat situ. -___-"

Bila dah 21 ni, macam-macam dah fikir. Fikir nak mengundi la. *haha, excited sangat nak mengundi, entah kenapa pun tak tahu ;)* Apa lagi ye, saya fikir kan. Macam macam lah. Ehh, jd trademark pulak "macam-macam la" Haha.

Dah tu je la kot. Malas pula nak cerita banyak pasal birthday ni. Tapi apa-apa pun, I bersyukur I still boleh bernafas dan melangkaui umur 21. Syukur ke hadrat Illahi. Dunia, sudah 21 tahun I dengan you.

Anyways, nak thanks to all for the birthday wishes. Sangat terharu, awak-awak semua ingat dan sudi untuk memberi ucapan selamat kepada I.

Ehhh, apasal la, entry kali ni, ayat agak baku eh? o.0 Hesh, macam-macam la kau ni Akmar.

Love all!!

June the month of birthdays.

2011-06-04T01:09:00.001+08:00

Ahaaa. Kan,, tgk la tajuk tu. June is back, and yeah. Every 21st of June, I akan jd setahun tua. Damnn. Okay, jgn damn sgt, it's a circle of life. Everyone will go through this. Tu pun kalau umur org tu pjg la kan. -.-" InsyaAllah. :)) This year I'm 21 years old. Pergh, mcm dah tua kan, tp perangai heshhh, mcm budak budak. Eh mana ade lah, Akmar dah matang taw. Ececeh. Haha.

Bulan ni jgk, birthday abg and my adik. So cukup 3 beradik birthday. Celebration pasti simple simple je, but Atiqah is studying rite now. Before this tak pernah miss our birthdays. Sbb time ni selalu cuti. Ye la, kalau sekolah, usually akan celebrate during weekends ke, tp since University pny schedule dah tukar my sister die dah start semester baru. Takpe, I akan try suruh die balik. Weeheee.

Okay, enough of birthday. Klau pjg umur kite celebrate eh. Jap jap jap. Birthday I on Tuesday this month. Entah mcm mana supervisor tu mcm tak sengaja ke atau sengaja ke, I off day hari tu. Wahhh, best. Mase birthday I off day. Weehoooo! Tak yah keje time birthday. Hope tak tukar jadual *pleaseeee pretty pleaseee. :))

So June ni, what's my target? Haha, nak try to hit target sale. Ececeh, konon dah kerja kan now, Kecoh lebih. :D So ape ape je la abt sales tu. Later!! Yeah, June ni nak jd lebih dewasa. Konon boleh. Eh boleh try kan? Tak slh nak try. Since 21 is the age where usually people say you get your freedom, plus you're wise enough to be able to vote during the election (winkwinkwink, terasa tua I taw) - agak excited nak daftar for this election thingy ni. :)

What else for June. Nothing much actually kan, since I'm working, so I won't be able to plan a lot of stuff sbb busy. So if somethings gonna happen just let it happen je la. And I'll make sure I'll cherish that moment. I'll try not to forget it for the rest of my life. Well, yg great, sweet, happy moments je la. Yg sedih, gloomy, dull, boring tu, agak tak penting, might as well, I should just forget about it. It might be a waste of time je if I think or remember about it. Kannn? :)

So as usual, kite pergi ke May skjp. May, byk tahu selok belok kehidupan org lain, kesusahan org lain. Kematangan pemikiran org lain, in which, I'm quite- shall I say unexpected? Mmg byk la I belajar dr die org. Tidak lupa, in May, I terasa I ni mcm noob sgt, first time nak keje, everything was so gelabah and shaky. Haha, kalau I igt, I malu. And oh thanks to my colleages sbb helped me a lot. Ajar I itu ini, just to be a good sales promoter *salute diri sendiri. :D

Masa May met with someone yg naik kan my faith in myself even more. Mcm before this I biase biase je, but now, I'm more determine if I want to achieve something. Fuyyoooh, that's a big change in my life. I sometimes jenis yg tak kisah. Mcm whatever je la! Jenis WTV tuuu. Haha.

During May jgk, I learned that, I ni tak la mudah sgt nak fall for someone. It takes quite a lot if things in account for me to actually like someone. Tak sangke I kuat for not falling for someone. Dulu, nmpk je muka hensem, mcm rapat blh suke. Skrg not anymore. HAHAHA. But for sure, I taw, I jenis yg setia. Sbb I still can't forget the person yg I like tu. (okay, mls nak cerita pasal benda mcm ni. It can make me mood less plak nnti)

Apalagi eh, May. Result was out, Alhamdulillah, it was quite an impressive result for me. Tak expect pun dpt result mcm tu. Syukur sgt sgt. Over all, I can say, I had a great May. The ups and downs are equal. So yeah, May did allow me to have a great May! :)

bertapa syukur nya aku menjadi Akmar Arif

2011-05-30T23:11:00.001+08:00

Hai, semua. Apa khabar? Since esok off day, dpt la nak blogging skit. So mulai skrg, anggap la kalau I blogging means esok tu off day. Alright, skrg ni I'm getting use terhadap pekerjaan. Not that tiring and no more gelabah gelabah from me. Skrg semua okay okay, cool je. See, who said that being a promoter ni teruk sgt. Well, to be honest, mmg penat, itu I mengaku, tp seronok la jgk. You can gain a lot experience actually. Either you notice is or not. But, I can say, as time goes by, I'm getting way better compared to before when it comes to serve the customers atau nak deal dgn mak cik guard yg kerek tu.

Baiklah, tgk tajuk kat atas tu, I'm so grateful to be Akmar Arif. Bukan nak belagak atau show off ke apa ke. Just besyukur yg I have a great life. Well, for my opinion mmg I have such great families, friends and much more. Thank you to Allah for all these.

Hmm, sejak bekerja ni. I had so much of thinking. Bagi I cara I fikir skrg ni maybe lain compared to dulu dulu kot, since I dah mula bergaul dgn org yg mmg luar dr range pemikiran I. Faham tak maksud I? Kalau tak, let me explain more. It's like this, as a student kan, we might think almost the same way of thinking kan. Pastu mostly kite akan mixed around dgn org yg kite blh ngam je kan, means mcm satu kepala dgn kite la. So bile I dah kerja ni, I had to mixed with org org yg lain sikit pemikiran dia org. Bukan I nak ckp dia org ni kuno ke ape. But, the way they think is so different. Frankly speaking, I kerja ni, just utk isi masa lapang since cuti pun lama and nak ade some pocket money utk shopping sikit sikit la ape yg I teringin tu. But mostly I jumpe teenagers (my colleagues) - range umur around 18 - 20 years yg bekerja tu, semua utk sara keluarga dia org. Can you imagine, I macam. Wow, they're so much younger than me, but they had to sara keluarge. Tak dpt smbg belajar even for STPM pun. Dah kena sara keluarga. Kesian I kat dorg. Just utk nak bantu meningkatkan pendapatan keluarga.

I syukur sgt, I'm able to continue my studies. InsyaAllah, if my studies are okay, and InsyaAllah lagi, one day, I'll get a better job to sara my keluarga or anything. I was thinking even deeper. Are they going to work as a promoter for the rest of their life? Like omaigosh. Serius I ckp, mmg I tak blh byg if I were in their position. Time situ I bertambah bersyukur, I was born in a family yg economically stable. My parents are still able to provide us enough foods, clothes, etc without our help. Mcm everything dia org provide. Terima kasih abah and ma.

Pastu I terfikir lg, at least die org keje mcm ni (sales promoter) pendapatan halal kan, dr buat benda yg tak patut mcm jual dadah ke ape ke, tu lg la nak merosakkan diri die org sendiri. Tp mmg I ckp, pemikiran die org utk I sgt matang. I mcm perlu lg bimbingan parents. Ini die org dah blh nak bimbing diri sendiri, then bawak siblings pergi holiday with their own salary. I ni, pergi holiday semua duit mak bapak. Perghh, lg I terfikir dalam. Furthermore, since bulan puase pun mcm dah agak nak dekat, dorg busy la nak cari duit lebih, kumpul duit awal awal nak beli baju baru utk diri sendiri dan family die org taww. Perghh. I ni, parents yg provide. Mak aihh, again, I'm so grateful.

Setalah I kerja jd promoter ni, baru I tahu mcm mna perasaan jd sales promoter. Ye la, kadang kadang kite beli benda, ade sales promoter, kite mcm suruh suruh die itu ini, rase macam kuli pun ade jgk at times. Tp nak buat mcm mna, nama pun kerja kan. So I buat je la. Janji Halal.

So jadinye, sebagai conclusion, I mmg bersyukur menjadi Nur Akmar Mohd Arif. Alhamdulillah atas nikmat yg diberi oleh Allah kepada ku. :) Setelah kerja penat mcm ni, I mcm lebih semangat nak belajar rajin rajin lagi if I dpt smbung degree. I nak smbg degree sgt sgt. Nak bljr lg, tak nak kerja lagi. The responsibilities are too much for me. I'm just not prepared yet! :/

have faith in yourself

2011-05-26T01:07:00.003+08:00

Haa, look at the title for today. Well, terfikir sebentar. Since when pulak I write all these kinda stuff kan. Mcm nasihat semua bagai kan. Hmm, ni semua sbb kerja. Kerja punya pasai, it really opened my eyes to see the world in a different perspective. Okay okay..

Nak cerita sikit. While I was working, there's this Indian guy. Die ni mcm promoter jgk la, tp die kerja dgn bank HSBC. He had to promote credit card. Die mcm kena promote so that org sign up for the HSBC credit card tu la. So yada yada. Mase takde org tu, suddenly he started to talk to me. He seems nice, nmpk mcm someone yg mcm really educated. :) He started our conversation dgn tny I ni school leaver ke. Gila ke ape, muke I ni dah berkedut, school leaver. *Wahh, bangge skjp, sbb awet muda. I corrected him kate I just finished diploma. Then die pun continue his work, I pula melangut tggu pelangan. :D So then ckp blk dgn die, tu pun die yg start jgk. Tny I ambil course ape, then ape ape la, tny semua. He was so excited bile I told him that I studied Mechanical Engineering for my diploma, sbb he wanted to study tu jgk, unfortunately tak blh because his result tak brp okay.

Then, he told me yg I have to be the best semua mcm la. Mcm he believe that I can be someone if I do the best. Die mcm kate later in three years time die akan meet me, and I'll be a successful engineer. *I terfikir, 3 tahun? baru hbs bljr kot, kerja pun tak lg, mcm mana nak jd the best engineer. :P

Nvm, yg I nak stress out here was, this guy had so much faith in me, siap kate I blh kerja kat luar negara and be so successful mcm mmg seorg yg gempak la, sng ckp. Okay, seriously, I tak pernah nak fkr yg I akan jd yg tergempak smpai terkenal satu dunia, make new things, research here and there. Wow, that's like TOO BIG for me!! Huaarghh Tp this Indian guy that I just knew for a while sgt percaya kan kat I. He gave me support as if I knew him dah lma, and he knows me so well smpai die blh percaya kepada diri I ni. I was actually overwhelmed. Sbb org yg baru kenal I mcm give me full support dgn what I'm doing (bukan I nak kate parents I tak kasi support kat I, my parents mmg kat front line kalau kasi support kat I ;) thanks ma and abah )

I told him, yg I'll TRY my best to be the best, tp die kate DON'T TRY, you HAVE to be the best. I mcm terfikir, eh jap. I akan cube la kn, jd the best, sbb I tahu diri I mcm mana. Then die kate there's other word then to try, die suruh I mcm betul betul go for it. Then I said, if that's so, he wants me to be DETERMINE to be the best. Like go all out for what I'm doing. So yeah, he said that's the right word and the right thing to do. It's to be DETERMINE. You have to put effort and go for the thing that you really want. And the most important thing in achieving what you want is to have FAITH IN YOURSELF. When you have faith, you will be determine, then you'll put effort (work hard for the thing), so later you'll be the best.

Then, this Indian guy said, if one day, even if I tak jd the 1st and came 2nd, be proud, sbb I have determined and tried my best to be the 1st. And don't be sad or regret if I came 2nd because I have put my everything to be the 1st. What really surprise me, he wanted to see me again. Well, maybe in 3 years time after I graduate my Degree, so he gave me his business card. :))

random thoughts

2011-05-25T02:56:00.000+08:00

Okay, so now I have officially graduated from my diploma. Alhamdulillah. Semuanye baik baik belaka. Result pun dah keluar. Syukur sekali kehadrat Ilahi. Result I okay. DL lg. Syukur sgt sgt. Okay, niat ni bukan nak cerita pasal result pun.

Alright, it's like this. You all know already kan, I'm now working kat Parkson One Utama (oh ke tak pernah bgtw tahu. Sorry). Btw, tak payah cari. Cukup la stkt bgtw kat Parkson One Utama. ;) So yeah, sgt memenatkan kerja jd sales promoter ni tahu. Kau mcm kena berdiri and wait for customers to come. Klau tak de customers, haaa, melangut je la you punye keje. Okay, that is so boring. Lifeless. Hahaha. Anyways, since now I've met some new friends, takde la bosan sgt kerja kat situ. They are all nice to me. Like really nice, mcm helped me abt this and that. The do's and don'ts la. Mcm mcm. Thank you for that. Sgt appreciate it. :)

So, nak cerita sikit. Bile dah kerja kat situ, okay you spend like almost half of your day tgk org, you'll see byk ragam manusia. Like byk sgt okay. Tak kisah la tu, what bothers me the most is the way now teenagers including the aunties (tak nak lepas kan peluang jgk die org ni) dress up. Hesshh, it's so shameful la. Terlampau sexy. Mostly byk pkai hot pants. Like pendek sgt la dorg punye seluar tu. You know what, it's not cute, it's disgusting, tahu tak. Dah la, most of my colleagues tu lelaki, can you imagine, dorg tgk benda cmtu, malu la I sebagai perempuan. Dorg siap tny I lg "Eh Akmar, dorg yg pakai seluar pendek cmni tak malu ke? Pendek sgt la, mcm la Malaysia ni panas sgt. Dlm mall ni bukannye takde air cond". Haish, if only I knew how they felt (org yg pkai hot pants) tu feel. Goshh, yg pelik nye jgk tu, semua bangse pkai cmtu. Klau chinese blh consider jgk la kan, ni Melayu. Haish, malu nye.

I know I bukannye baik sgt nak nasihat org boleh buat ni ke tidak, buat itu boleh ke tidak. But please la. You punye maruah jgk, terlampau seksi. Klau stkt sleeveless tu I blh tolerate lg la, but hot pants. Haishh, (I think E! should list hot pants as a don'ts la. Buruk sgt) tak payah la kan. I pun tak pkai tudung. Tp bile I nampak org pkai cmtu, I mule terfikir, bile I nak mule pkai tudung. I terfikir, dorg showing off their body mcm tak malu ke, I yg tak pkai tudung ni pun malu ( I malu dengan Allah, malaikat etc, I rase mcm I tak sempurna) But, I admit, I mmg tak sedia lagi nak bertudung. But, I know one day I will pakai tudung, just when, how, where, (haaa, benda benda tu la) tu yg tak pasti lg.

I guess ni keluhan I kot utk kali ni. I harap hot pants ni tak jadi trend la. Cepat cepat la trend hot pants pergi. Amin. Hush Hush. Shhooooossshhh.

masalah-masalah

2011-05-04T22:24:00.000+08:00

Problems come and go. But the problem with my heart is always the same thing. Dah malas la, asyik-asyik macam ni. Tahu tak, bukan baru je masalah ni, tp since sekolah rendah. Nak tapi tak nak. Itulah die. Nak tak nak tu is my feelings towards someone. I mcm dah rase suke, tp selalu I have second thought abt that someone. Gila ape. You shoud just accept people the way there are. You will never find someone perfect, sbb no one is Perfect. Geddit Akmar. If you like him, show it. Ni tidak. As usual, you like someone, you'll end up, getting away from that person. =.=" Apahal dowh. I'm not les or gay ke ape. I like man. Tp mmg I akan buat cmtu.

So okay, yg kali ni, do you want him Akmar? My answer is I don't know. Confuse. Ntah, mixed emotions. :/ Apa-apa pun go with the flow, tp flow mcm nak berhenti je. So buat ape lg klau bukan buat bodoh. So buat bodoh je la. Alahai, melepas lg. Damnnn!

May. may I have a great May. :D

2011-05-04T22:06:00.000+08:00

So now, mmg were in the month of May. Gila la weyh,cepat betoi. Rase mcm baru je masuk tahun baru. Tup Tap Tup Tap. Dah May. Ambik hang.. Ok, ape-ape pun. Happy May. Bulan May ni, yg plg penting. Lesen Memandu tamat. Okay kena renew kalau nak drive. Cesss. Next is nak cari keje since cuti kali ni lama skit dr usual. Oh lupe pulak. Alhamdulillah, setelah 3 tahun belajar di Penang. Akhirnye, diploma dah habis. InsyaAllah. Harap semua berjalan lancar. Dah apply for Degree. Berharap sgt agar I dpt course yg I nak tu. InsyaAllah. Amin.

So pasal nak berkerja ni. Haha. Sebab utama nak kerja sbb nak shopping. Lebih tu maybe simpan la kot. Tp yg penting nak manje kan diri dgn duit kerja tu. Weee. Kerja tak buat kerja yg berkaitan dengan makanan. Which means kalau tak kerja cmtu, nak tak nak kerja jadi sales promoter la gamaknye. Dahpergi cari, now tggu dorg nak call je. So yeah. Hope dpt la jgk kerja. Harap gaji pun cantik lah juga. :)

Okay, nak cite sikit pasal April. Baru perasan. I only post satu je entry utk April. Mak aih. You are so lazy Akmar. Hehe. Alright, mmg tak di nafikan. I was lazy and I was so damn freaking busy during April. MPG, tests, reports, projects, arghhh! Mmg busy gila. Tak menang tangan. Kuar rumah pagi, blk lewat mlm. Mmg nice kan. :/ Housemates smpai perli kata I buat rumah mcm hotel. Balik utk tidur je. Aha. Apa-apa pun tu dah lepas. Now, I can relax. Bak kata pepatah. Bersusah-susah dahulu, bersenang-senang kemudian. Ececeh. :)

Anyways, now since I'll be continuing my Degree kat Shah Alam, so I left Penang. Oh gosh. Tahu tak susah gila nak leave Penang. Berat sungguh. I had so many great memories there. Not to mention yg bitter memories juga. Gelak tawa, suka duka. Wahh. Tak sgke akan rindu Penang smpai macam tu sekali. I miss Penang and the people there. Plus enviroment die. Huhu. :'( Okay, I mengaku, I sebak mcm nak nangis bile fikir nak leave Penang. Penang was my first place to be independent. Mcm kuar je rumah then kena pegi Penang. Ohhh. Yg plg penting I miss all the memories there. Haaaa. Sedih nye. *be strong Akmar. Dah la malas ckp pasal Penang. Buat I sedih je. :( Huhu.

Apa-apa pun I wish all the best to all my friends. I love you guys. You guys have been so nice to me. Every memories will be secured in my heart. Kalau boeh tak nak lupe lgsg. Syg kat korg. I love you guyssss. Love love. Hope we could meet again someday. *time tu semua mcm dah kahwin dah ade anak. winkwink. :D

Till then

no april fools for me

2011-04-12T14:56:00.000+08:00

Ntah ape-ape je tajuk. Lame! Part yg plg I tak suke fikir is tajuk utk new entry. Mmg tak pndai nak kasi tajuk. =.=" So, yeah. Mcm lama tak update. Lame jgk la kan, last update akhir March, now post baru dah hmpir nak tgh April. Ok, hidup mmg sgt busy. Busy as the bees la konon. Tp mmg betul ape yg I ckp. My life has been so hectic these past few weeks. Semua nye serba serbi rushing. Test la, lab report la. Segala bagai benda nak kena past up on time. Student life la katakan. Sma je, semua org sme. -.-" Ehe.

Now, hidup dah agk normal la. Pace pun dah mcm normal. Tdr pun dah getting way better. Tdk before this, sehari I just sleep for 2 to 3 hours shj ye. @.@ ni bukan rekaan, tp mmg betul. Pegi cmpus mmg dah awal gile pkl 8am or 9am dah terpacak kat kampus tu haaa, then nk blk rumah semula dah petang tak pun mlm. Penat kan? Tp takpe janji kerja atau ape2 yg nak buat settle.

Oh ye lupa plak, nnti akan ade MPG, tahu kan MPG tu ape, Majlis Pra-Graduan. Mcm tak nak pegi, tp dah bayar, so kena pegi. Hehe. Alasan! Kate je la nk pegi kn. Aha. Baju dah beli, tp rase cm tak glamour and elegan la pula. Since the theme is Glamour and Elegant, nk kena pkai baju cmtu la kan. Tp xpe, just being myself, moderation. Tak nak la gempak sgt ke-glamour-an dan ke-elegan-an tu. I ni pemaluuuuu! Ahaaaa.

Ok la, drpd I keep merepek kerepek. I should stop je la. Lgpn ngantuk la pula, sejak takde benda sgt nak buat ni, blh ddk lepak kat rumah sorang-sorang and tidur. Klau tidak, nak dpt timing cm ni, mmg susah ahhh. ;) Haaa, sebelum tu, final exam I dah nak mule. Minggu depan je y'all. Gile en. Hari paper berturut-turut. Which means, kena rush utk study. Tp mood study tak dtg lg. So later!! Haha. My paper is on 21.4 and 22.4. Kan dah kate. Cepat kan? And hbs pn cepat. hehe. Tp cuak kot. Takut dan risau.

Eh, I pegi dulu la ye. Bye Bye. :)

short update abt me

2011-03-21T17:54:00.000+08:00

Went home last weekend. And gosh, I had a splendid time at home. Sewonok cangat-cangat. Ewwww, geli, itu bukan saya! :D Tension semua hilang, well, takde la tension mna sgt pun. Tp seronok la dpt spend time dgn abah and ma. Rasenye genap sebulan tak blk since last blk hari tu. Heavan hbs. This time semua blk, Hafiz and Iqah pun blk jgk. Which means lengkap satu family. One happy family at home (terigt plak kat game card tu).

So, mmg niat blk last weekend nak celebrate birthday ma. So mmg celebrate, plus plus celebrate abah pny jgk, tp belated birthday la. Mcm biase la, takde la grand sgt celebration nye, like the previous years. Cume mkn sekeluarga. Tempat pun tempat biasa-biasa ja.

Pastu blk kali ni, keluar dgn Iqah, yg plg best! Gossip bersama adikku la.. Wahhhh. Lepas segala rindu nak gossip dgn die. Thanks for listening sister. :)

Agak-agak nye, ni je la nak tulis. Nme pn short update. So Bye Bye

alam

2011-03-13T14:57:00.002+08:00

Hai! tgk tajuk tu, so basically kali ni nak cerita pasal dunia kita lah kan. Byk sgt bencana yg melanda. Tak kisah la, bencana tu dr Allah ke, atau sbb political ke. Anything! Apa-apa pun yg penting semua ni dtg dr Allah Yang Maha Besar. Pasti ada hikmah dgn apa yg berlaku kan. (tu ayat normal org selalu ckp kat kite if kite kena anything yg menyedihkan, atau down ke pape je la). I bersyukur, I'm living in well, quite a peaceful country. Jauh jgk dr bencana besar begitu. Syukur sgt.

Baru-baru ni Japan was hit by huge earthquake dan kemudian Tsunami pula melanda. I know, by now, ramai yg sudah tahu perkara ni. Kat berita byk cerita pasal hal ni. Sgt menakutkan. I tak blh byg, if I were to be there. Pasti menggerunkan. Byk nyawa yg hilang, plus harta benda pasti musnah ranah. Byk kerugian dr pelbagai segi kan. Tanaman, perdangang. Semuanya!

pictures are courtesy of Reuters.

Wow! Dah tgk kan gmbr kat atas tu. Dah mcm dumpsite kan. Kereta, kapal, kontena even kapal terbang semua mcm piled up. Terkumpul mcm kat dumpsite. Mase ni, harta benda dah tak penting lg bagi dorg. Yg penting is keselamatan diri dan keluarga. Masing-masing tak nak keluarga terkorban dlm bencana ni. Haih. If I were to be in their place, Ya Allah, tak blh bayang sgt, if nak kena lose my family dlm keadaan yg mcm ni. Time ni I mmg bersyukur to be borned and to live in a small country mcm Malaysia even selalu merungut panas then hujan tibe-tibe kn.

So, as Japan was hit by earthquake, dieorg face another problem. Diaorg pny Nuclear Power Plant has blew up. Okay! Nuclear. It's really dangerous. Ade radiation yg sgt dangerous to manusia. Harmful sgt2. Malaysia takde lg Nuclear Power Plant, tp if this were to happen- blew up for some reasons, I'd rather not have Nuclear Power Plant. Kalau nk sgt, make sure. It'd be safe for EVERYONE. Tp bak kate pepatah, everything comes with a consequences. Ain't that true?

So, before I stop. My heart goes out to all the people who's affected by the earthquake and tsunami. Hope everything end soon.

Ya Allah, please save the world. Shed away all the tears and miseries. Aku berlindung dgn mu Ya Allah. Jauh kan diriku, keluargaku, kawan-kawanku dan semuanya. Jauhkan lah kami dari bencana malapetaka. Amin.

I think it's too late for my March (first) entry

2011-03-11T04:15:00.001+08:00

So yeah, life has been so hectic lately. I just notice that, my last update was like almost 1 month ago. Ahaa. Ain't it cool? It's almost a month, I haven't wrote anything in this blog. Lazy me!

Right, according to the topic. Haha. It's officially 11 March. It's almost in the middle of March. Oh, anyways, I went to Johore last weekend. Went for an Industrial Visit which means I missed my dad's birthday! Just wished him through the phone :\ Somehow, I'm still happy because I still have the oppurtunity to wish on his birthday! Abah!! I love you! I'll make you proud someday, somehow! :)

Like those previous posts for every new month (entry). I'd go back to the month before. Just to remind myself of what I've gained, experienced, etc. February wasn't that bad after all. It was quite a busy month well to be exact- only at the end of the month, as I had few tests going on. Anyhow, Alhamdullilah, I think I did quite well, eventhough I didn't study that well and kinda lost my focus because of last minute study (as usual) :) Hope I get a good result. And oh. I know what I want now! I think I have an aim. At last! Well, gonna keep my aim to myself. Won't reveal it! It's my secret. No one would know it. (well, I hope I don't blurt it out to anyone, Plsssss)

What I really hope for March is to go home. Haha. Well, I'm looking forward for my mom's birthday which is next weekend. So meaning, I'll try my best to make my schedule as free as possible (for the weekends) and go homeeee!! Yeah! Can't wait. Gotta finish all those assigments that are haunting me. -_-" Danngg, so many report, report and reportsss and and project. Sigh! Nevermind. I'll use my time wisely (as if)! I'll try my best. Yes I will. Ahaaa. (At the moment, I'm listening to Who's that chick by Rihanna) -__- Who's that chick. Well, Akmar the chicken eater. Ahaa. :D

GTG. ByeBye.

stuck in the middle

2011-02-14T20:55:00.001+08:00

Have you ever felt like you're stuck in the middle between people? Well, it's something I would rather not feel. Okay, let's start the from the beginning. Hmm, let say, you are to give opinions about something. Two people ni nak beli something. Si A mcm, "Ni lebih okay.. Kan die lebih cantik...yada yada" then si B akan totally disagree "Eeee, biar betul, buruk kot.". Alright that's the situation. Then they started to argue. Lastly, both of them would turn to you like "What do you think?". Okay seriously, I would want to give my opinion, and I did! pastu I kinda agree dgn si A. Then later yg si B mcm "Hmm, biar betul". Suddenly yg si B merajuk. Huh! Am I to be blame? You ask for my opinion kan. But now you can't accept it. Weirdo! So that the case. Hate the feeling when you're blamed just because you chose a side. Hishh!

Okay, another case, ni mcm totally you kena jage hati org. C nak buat ni yg si D plak nak buat something else. Tp both of them need you're help. And the best part is dua-dua things they both nak buat is kinda important. Now you tell me, which side to choose. Mmg totally confusing. Lastly, I choose je yg mne-mne. And as usual, the one not chosen akan terasa. Then later, I have this guilty feeling. Eee, geram la, when these things happen.

Tp at the same time mcm best jgk, because you taw, people want your opinion, help, etc. So rase appreciated pun ade jgk kan. :) Whatever it is, I try to look on the positive side. So that things would sort out positively. Kan kan kan. Anyways, if you're in a situation where you don't know which side to choose. Just do what you feel right, ala ala, follow your heart la konon. ;) So, byebye

congratulations to Hamzah and Kak O

2011-02-07T22:12:00.001+08:00

Ok, this is gonna be just a short update - stealing a bit of my time before I start on my assignments. So basically, I just wanna wish Hamzah and Kak O upon their marriage which was on 29 of January 2011. Alright, a bit about this couple, they chose this date because on this particular day was the first time they met each other. Isn't it sweet? You got married on the same date as the first time you meet your partner :)

I gotta go now. Nak upload gmbr tp tataw why I can't, I'll get back to this post later. Nak kena rush ni. Nnti I akan upload jgk gmbr the newly weds. So Bye Bye.

Updated on 18.2.2011

Hamzah & Kak O

February

2011-02-02T23:18:00.011+08:00

Hello there. So now, it's February. Everything is great and fine in January. I don't actually have much to say. Just hope you guys are gonna have a great February. And I guess mine will be awesome. Somehow, I just know, it's gonna be just exciting and yet still, there are some problems here there. But nvm, it's life.

So yeah, January was full of sweet memories. And I'm trying my best to be a good student. Not to mention, lately, I kinda play a lot. Which is totally not good. Better change, as if I can.

Hmm, guess that's it for now. Bye Bye. I'm getting lame and boring each day and every time I try to update my blog. Ciao.

ni normal. segalanya normal

2011-01-24T03:58:00.001+08:00

Hi hi! Nak ckp ape eh. It's always the same thing kan. Over and over again.

Alright. I can't sleep tonight - not really night, it's 3.35 in the morning. I thought I could sleep. But I was wrong. There so much things playing in my mind. About him, her, you and me. Everyone!

Not to mention, I had a great chat, well, to be exact a great online call with Aizzah and Lia. I miss them so much. Then, after 1 hour of chatting, Hazlin joined. Talked with them for another hour. And yes, I laugh like so hard - it's been ages since I last laughed like that. Every single thing we talked tickles me. I didn't know I miss them that much. Btw, I'm so sorry we didn't get the chance to meet up last semester break. Yada yada yada we talked. Catching up with some latest updates of our life.

Hmm, life is getting way better here in Penang. I'm having tonnes of fun and excitement. Every moment is use wisely and I'm making sure that, I end my last semester with so many great memories. Sweet yet bitter at times though. Nevermind, it's life after all. We should just cherish every moment and get the best of it! ;)

Alright, speaking of moments, memories. I kinda miss my family. It's almost a month. I think its normal to feel homesick after being apart for some time. But, I'm 21 already- should I feel that way, well, not actually 21 but almost 21 by this June. Arghh, age doesn't determine anything. Hearts and feelings can't be forced. So, basically I can't force myself not to miss home. However, I don't get all moody up like how I used to be before and being a cry baby. No more of that. I stronger than yesterdays. :)

And oh, I guess that's it for now. I'll write back when I feel like writing.

When my mood swings, I write stuff in here. Nahh, I dont know. I think I'm just unpredictable. I do whatever I want.

Anyways, bye bye. Much love from me.

nak jiwang sikit la kali ni.

2011-01-09T13:20:00.074+08:00

Cinta, love, liebe, el amor semuanya memberi maksud yg sma. Satu perasaan yg kite tak dapat nak bendung. Ececeh. It's either love kite towards god, family, country, friends, boyfie or girfie ke, pets tak lupe jgk, ape-ape pun yg kite cinta.

Tp cinta ni die mcm blh memberi perasaan yg berbeza. Mcm cinta kite pada tuhan. Kite beribadat padanya. Kira sama jgk cinta kite pada agama kite. Kite pertahankan agama kite kalau ade org nak jatuh kan atau musnah kan ke ape-ape la kan. Then cinta kite pada family kite. Ni kite mcm syg papa, mama, daddy, mommy, ayah, mak, ibu, ummi, walid. Ape-ape la korg pggl kan. We make them happy, kite jage perasaan dorg so then won't feel hurt dgn ape yg kite buat. Pastu ada lah cinta dgn adik-beradik sesama uncles and aunts then cousin. And so on.

Ok, today nak ckp skit psl love antara a girl and a boy. This is not about my love life. It's about a love between a mute guy and a blind girl. Unik kan? How do they communicate? Sgt susah kan. Because laki tu tak blh nak ckp, kalau nak ckp pun through sign language. So mmg confirm-confirm la perempuan tu tak blh nak fhm smpai bile-bile because die tak kan nmpk sign language yg laki tu buat. Laki ni mmg suke sgt kat perempuan tu, smpai kan snggup buat ape. So kalau laki tu nak communicate dgn perempuan tu die gune kwn die utk nak ckp kan kat perempuan tu. Laki tu pun propose perempuan tu. But then, perempuan tu tolak cause die tahu relationship dorg won't work. But then laki tu have a strong feeling, it will work. As it is the power of love. Woahhh, besar perkataan tuu! POWER OF LOVE. Haha. Pengakhiran cerita nye, I'm not sure, sbb kena keluar waktu tu. Nak catch up lagi movie tu, die dah tak tunjuk. Jd tak dpt tahu ending cerita tu. Ape-ape pun, perasaan syg atau cinta antara dorg sgt unik, sbb wlpn dorg serba kekurangan tp I get the feeling cerita tu end with a happy ending.

So what I can say kat sini is that, semua org pasti akan ade perasaan cinta kat dlm diri die. Kalau tak cinta pun pasti ade perasaan syg. Satu perasaan yg blh menyebabkan perasaan cinta. Tp, perasaan cinta atau syg tak blh dipaksa. Ia dtg dgn sendiri. Tanpa paksaan. You might not like a person when you first met them. But sooner or later, when you get to know the person well and deeper. You'll like them. Mcm tu la, blh menyebabkan perasaan syg tu. Tp kan kadang-kadang, there can be a situation where you get to know a person more and more, you'll end up hating or not liking the person. Tu pun blh jgk. However, I'm not gonna talk about hatred right now. :) Love and hate. It's a feeling which is hard to describe. It's a feeling that you yourself know when you go through it. Anyways, the greatest love is towards God. :)

dah seminggu kat Penang di thn 2011

2011-01-08T12:53:00.000+08:00

Dah 1 week dekat Penang. Wah wah. 2011 pun dah hampir masuk ke minggu yg kedua. Cepat nye kan. Anyways, I'm having a nice time here in Penang. Since class pun tak start lg. Tu yg best tu. But then when the lecturers start to give me assgmnts to do, mase tu, mcm heshhh, tak suke nye byk assgmnt! So, this sem I only have 4 subjects yg perlu di study. And 3 of them adalah subject membaca. Cisss, bace kot. Kurang minat. Teeet. This means I only have 1 subject yg kira-kira. Tp subject itu killer. Ape-ape la kan. Belum cuba belum tahu. Ecececeh.

Hmm, lg satu. I'm looking forward terhadap cuti yg bakal tiba tak lama lg. Haha. Arnd 2 weeks lagi kot. Yeay yeay, tak sbr babe. Rase nye waktu tu tak busy lagi kot, so blk cuti pn boleh chill-chill lagi la kot. *harap-harap la sgt!

Apa lagi eh nak citer. Pasal Penang dah, pasal tak sbr nak cuti pun dah. Hmmm, tak de dah kot. Oklah. Bye Bye. :)

2011 is here!! Happy new year!

2011-01-01T00:00:00.008+08:00

Wow, we are officially entering 2011. Time goes really fast. The next thing you know we have reach the end of 2011.

Its has been a great journey through out the whole 2010. I'm having such a magnificent 2010. Well, there were the downs, somehow it made me much more stronger.
Yes, di tahun 2010 I get to know, how's my enemy and who's my friend. Semua mcm ter-reveal.
Dah takde sorok-sorok dah perangai orang. The longer you know someone, the better you know their behaviour. Not bringing up all these things. It makes me angry and sad at the same time.
Sudah la sudah (mcm lagu Sixth Sense tu. Hehe)
However, I want to thank all those people yg telah make me laughed guling-guling, pastu make me realize things I didn't see, mcm-mcm la. They're all the best. Thanks people.
Nak thanks Abah and Ma jgk. They have fulfill my wanting lists -bukan la segala barang-barang tu, tapi dari segi nasihat and ape-ape yg parents should give to their children la. I know you know what I mean. :)) . Heee. Ape-ape je la. Thanks so much. Really appreciate the things that both of you gave me. I'll try to be a very good daughter. :)

For 2011 ni, I hope dpt meningkatkan kematangan diri. Ye la, I'm entering 21 soon. Dah boleh dah nak mengundi. See, that shows yang someone tu dah almost mature when they're 21, they can make their own decision WISELY!! Haa, wisely tu kena besar, because I usually don't think wisely. Konon slalu ckp gune my time wisely.Wisely ape kalau setakat tgk tv. Haha. Tp tu dah minat, mane boleh halang kan. Hehe.
Azam tahun ni nak selesai kan azam 2010. Haha. I wasn't serious in 2010 sbb terlampau WISE la katekan.. Tu lah azam tak tercapai. Oleh sebab tak nak terlebih berazam, selesaikan dulu azam 2010. Kalau dah capai baru buat azam lain. Haha. Tu pun dikira azam ape kan. ;)

Anyways, wish semua Happy New Year. May you have a great year ahead. :)

alahai, cuti dah nak habis la. dangggg!

2010-12-29T02:07:00.001+08:00

Okay, seriously, I have less than a week to stay home. Then off to Penang. And the new semester starts. Adoi! Malasnye. Looking forward for more new experiences yg bakal dilalui di sem baru ni. Azam tarak ye. Malas nak berazam. So yada yada. Malas nak remind otak ni pasal nak blk Penang thingy tu.

Moving on.. Like yeahhh, best gile. Went to see the football match between Malaysian and Vietnam (okay, that is so dah lame berlalu) and I did went to see the match between Malaysia and Indonesia too. I screamed like hell for the both matches bile the Malaysian players kasi goal. Tapi paling kuat during Malaysia and Indonesia tu la. Sampai sakit tekak bagai and now suara husky je. Dah macam Ella yaw!! :) Memang ramai sgt org waktu final tu. Haish, dah jd macam sardin. Pi sana sini berhimpit. Rimas-rimas. Somehow semua tu experience. Anyways, hope the Malaysian players will do the best for the second leg match. Kasi menang Malaysia. Make new history!! Go MALAYSIA!! Wah, semangat sudahhh!

Okay okay, actually I kinda baru balik from Melaka. Pegi a-last-minute-plan-holiday. Since my dad nak sgt pergi holiday so he suggested Melaka as the venue; it's near, fun and historic -.-". So jalan-jalan di Melaka. Makan asas pedas semua, boleh kate for the 3 days, makan lauk same je. Asam pedas sahaje, tp kedai je lain-lain. Kire mcm nak test asam pedas yg terbaik la. Sort of. :) I really enjoyed myself. Relax gile-gile when you go out of town. We sould do it some other time (mmg selalu buat pun tp tempat di Penang je, tu rase mcm dah tak best tu nak pegi holiday dekat Penang) dah la study dkt Penang, holiday pn Penang. What the... Haha.

Ape lagi eh. Tak de ape dah kot. Kalau ade pun dah tak ingat. Sahaje buat-buat tak ingat pun ade jgk, sbb dah malas nak type. Haha. Okay la byebye.

Jappp, last-last. Malasnye nak balik Penang. Cuti oh cuti. Lame lah lagi. AS IF!!!!

ape dah jd lately kat aku.

2010-12-13T00:17:00.000+08:00

Hi there! I've been very busy lately. So yeah, which means I don't have that much of time to update my blog. How are you guys doing? There's been so much things happening to me lately. My phone is 'out of service' yang mana ianya sudah rosak. Suke hati nenek tiri die nak on off sesuke hati, tgh happy-happy text org tibe-tibe kiok off, tgh happy gune wifi tibe-tibe shut down. Bengong la punye phone. Tp takpe kot, lame dah gune phone tu, I would say around 2 years and plus, so I guess it the right time for me to actually change to a new phone. I have a few phones in mind but (sigh) they all cost a fortune. Sigh. And I kinda have to use my own money to buy it. Well, of course my dad will pay too, tp takdo la semua nye mak ai. Maka dgn hati yg riang -.-" duit poket la kena gune. Oleh itu, budget utk nak beli phone kena letak supaya tak overspend!!

Next on the list is the examination result. Yup, dah keluar. Dah 3 hari jgk la die keluar. I got an unexpected result. Thankful to all the lecturers, okay la result tu. Syukran. Oh yeah, not forgetting jgk, to all friends who had helped dlm pelajaran.

Pastu, skrg ni jgk busy teman my mom nak exercise. Ye la kan, org tua perlu exercise, jage kesihatan, bukan org tua je eyh, kite teens ni pn kena jgk supaya tak sakit di kemudian hari atau obesity ke ape ke kan (wah, dah mcm pakar kesihatan plak). Every weekends bgn tak yah ckp la weyh, awal gila!! Then pergi Tasik Perdana tu haa, jauh bukan? Nak exercise pn kena tempat best-best supaya tak bosan. Hmmm, bukan setakat weekends je tp kalau ade je public holiday exercise lagi. Takpe-takpe sambil teman my mom dpt la jgk diriku ni exercise. Goyang-goyang, gerak-gerak mane-mane part tu. Besides, I get to spend more time with my mom. Well, she's not home during the weekdays kan. Balik kerja je dah lmbt, then she's off to bed. Tgk je la, when is the time for me to sit and chat with her. It's actually fun when I could gossips with my mom then laugh about those things happening around us. ;))

Pastu hari tu, ade pergi Hafi'z graduation day. Best jgk la even though it was gila pny panas!! I'm happy to see that my brother had graduated. Next year, Insya-Allah aku pula akan grad. Hesh, mcm best je dpt-dpt bunga ni. Pastu ade teddy bear bagai. Bestttt!!! Haha.

Weyh, dah pjg pula post ni. Tak bajet pula nak tulis pjg-pjg. Okayla, utk elak kan diri ni dari nak mula merepek aku stop dulu la ye. Lgpn, nak pegi tgk tv ni. Ade cite best tu. Okay-okay. Byebye.

december baby december!

2010-12-01T02:18:00.000+08:00

OMGeeee, It's December of 2010. 2011 is on its way. Can't really describe how I feel right now.

Sad that it's almost the end of 2010, excited as we're entering 2011.

Just some mixed feelings.

Well, of course, November went well. The whole November was spent wisely. Very wisely indeed by gluing myself to the tv, lol. Helping my mother out with some chores. Not forgetting, working out my ~~ass~~ body at the gym (haha, it's funny, I spent more time relaxing than exercising). Spent more quality time with my family. Bond more with my sibbies which made us even closer than before. It was just awesome. It was filled with laughter and love.

I'm hoping this will continue till the end of December. In December the exam result is out. Just gotta prepare for what it's gonna be. Can't think more of what I might be doing this December. Oh yeah, I'm really looking forward for a family holiday (please,please,please). Before I forget, I'll be attending my brother's graduation day on 2nd December. ;)

Guess that's it for now. I don't really know what else to write. So, bye bye.

I'm a boring person.

2010-11-24T04:09:00.003+08:00

It's been almost a week since my semester break started. And guess what. I spend most of my time at home. I know, it's boring. Well not for me, I'm having such a fun time just by staying home. Call me a boring person, yup, just because I don't go out and hang out with friends. It's just me. I rarely go out. I go out only with purpose. For example, I go out if I do feel like shopping, which hardly is going to happen. That's because I'm not into shopping.

I'd rather stay home and watch tv. I don't go onlining for hours or whatsoever. I just sit on the couch and watch whatever catch my attention. See. Told you I'm a boring person. I don't text people, I hardly answer any calls (it's because I don't even know where the heck did I last see my phone, lol) , I don't skype, YM-ing, MSN-ing with people. It's just me and the tv. I think I should just marry the tv one day. Haha.

But, this only happens when I'm back home in Kuala Lumpur. If I'm in Penang. I go out with friends, I text people, I chat with friends for hours, I call anyone whom I feel like calling. It's such a different me. Totally different. It's because, in Penang I don't have loads of channel which I can frequently change till I found a show or programme which will catch my attention. There you'll know that I'm not that boring after all. Haha. So, I guess it depends on the place where I stay at that moment which decide, the boring-ness of me. Haha.

Oh, ya. It's not like I don't entertain people at all when I'm in KL. I do, it's just that, I do it a little bit more lesser compared to when I'm in Penang. If you need me. Just text me or leave anything on my FB wall. If I'm so-totally free. I'll get back to you. But it may take several hours or even days for me to contact you back. I'm sorry. It's my nature. I'm trying to change it but I can't. Nevermind, I'll try my best.

Till then. ByeBye.

*I usually update my blog when I'm on my way to sleep. :)

iYiYi ;)

2010-11-20T01:25:00.001+08:00

Every minute, every second, every hour of the day

iYiYi

Every hour of the day

iYiYi

Everytime that I'm away

iYiYi

Missing You, Missing You

Every moment that is stolen it can never be replaced

iYiYi

Even if it's for a day

iYiYi

I'm a text you up to say

iYiYi

Missing you, Missing You

iYiYi by Cody Simpson :)

I'm officially no longer a part 5 student. weee.

2010-11-15T17:02:00.002+08:00

Wow, can't imagine, I'll be a part 6 student next semester. Like OMGEE!!. I finished off my fifth semester with Mechanical Design Paper. It was kinda okay. As usual not targeting an A. No more study things for the a least 1 month or so. Yeay! I'm free from college book and 'dieting' from studying. ;)

I'm back home. Safe and Sound. The journey back home was exhausting, I was stuck for more than an hour. Because there was an accident. Sigh. Somehow, it was still a nice drive. :)

My plan for this holiday is to RELAX. Relaxing my mind, my soul and my body. Just planning to stay home, and have a good time at home. Since the Aidil Adha is around the corner. Maybe I'll be celebating the Eid only at home with my family as the previous years.

That's it for now. Bye.

sweet november

2010-11-01T15:30:00.002+08:00

Hello love! Sweet November is here. Anyways, why is November sweet to me? Well, I myself don't know. :) Basically, other countries that is far from the equator are supposed to have a great weather month. Cold, damp, gloomy. Actually, that doesn't sound so fun isn't it? Okay, enough of that.

November, november. It's been a year since we last met. ;) Hopefully I have a great November. My fifth semester is coming to an end. Next year I'll be entering my sixth semester, which means it's my last semester for my diploma. Insya-Allah, I'll finish my diploma in time. Amin.

Right, looking back in October. Oh My God. I went through a lot. I just don't want to have those moments again, where you have a feeling of anger and you don't know how to express what you feel in dealing with such kind of person. I was emotionally hurt. And the fact that, last month was a very hectic month for me. There were so much things going on. And yes, I was strong last month as I made it to November. Alhamdulillah. :) Never again I want those things happening to me again. Never. Btw, I had really moved on. I'm not having those lovey-dovey feeling towards anyone. That really is a good thing for me.

Guess, I better stop here.I'll write some other time. Byebye.

this is what wives and mothers does best. And somehow we still love them.

2010-10-29T02:36:00.000+08:00

POST INI COPY AND PASTE FROM FACEBOOK. JUST THOUGHT I SHOULD SHARE THIS NOTE. IT'S CUTE AND TRUE. ;)) if there are some mistakes regarding the grammar or whatsoever, just ignore it, the writer did it, and I don't feel like correcting though as it's not mine. Hehe.

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Seorang lelaki balik rumah.. Dia jadi heran gler halaman umah berselerak, surat kat peti pos tak berambil, anak-anak tengah main korek-korek tanah kotor, baju compang-camping, penuh dengan tanah dan kotoran, rambut tak bersikat, tak bermandi.. Masuk ke pintu rumah lagi lelaki tu terkejut. Ruang tamu lagi teruk berselerak. Lelaki tu melaung nama isterinya.. Sepi tiada jawapan. Masuk ke dapur, sinki penuh dengan pinggan mangkuk tak berbasuh, periuk tak bercuci, mencari apa yang boleh dimakan tetapi tiada makanan yang dimasak. Masuk ke bilik air, baju belum berbasuh apatah lagi berendam. Lelaki itu cemas mencari isterinya. Dia bergegas ke tingkat atas melihat isterinya terbaring di atas katil sedang membaca buku.

“Awak sakit ke?” tanya lelaki itu.

“Tak lah”, jawab isterinya ringkas.

“Kenapa teruk sangat rumah kita hari ni?” Tanya si suami lagi sambil meletakkan tangan di dahi isterinya, kot-kot isterinya demam.

“Wahai suamiku, semalam semasa kita bertengkar, abg mengatakan yang saya ini hanyalah suri rumah, duduk di rumah tak sepenat diri abg yang duduk di pejabat, dan abg sering menanyakan apa kerja yang saya lakukan di rumah yang menyebabkan saya merungut kepenatan kadang-kadang..

NAH, HARI INI SAYA TIDAK MELAKUKAN KERJA-KERJA YANG BIASA SAYA LAKUKAN SETIAP HARI”

Kau isteriku

Dari ilham seorang lelaki..

“ Wanita adalah insan istimewa, biarkan mereka terus membebel, merengek atau mengilai seperti Pontianak. Seburukburuk perangai wanita, ia akan terus melekat di hati kita selagi hayat di kandung badan”

Bezanya antara ibu zaman dulu dengan ibu zaman sekarang… Ibu sekarang tidak mencubit atau memiat telinga anak-anak. Itu mungkin one of da reason why anak-anak tak berapa takut and at times, hanya memekakkan telinga setiap kali ibu member “ceramah percuma”. Mungkin anak-anak tak terasa kehilangan or boleh jadi melompat keriangan bila ibu takde kt uma (for instance if he’s gone for a short holiday)

Budak-budak zaman sekarang ramai kawan, banyak caranya mereka mengisi waktu. They will go for movies, clubbing, or most to most lepak kat tempat yang happening. As for me is different, if my wife is not at home, rumah boleh jadik porak peranda. Memang betul, jika isteri ada kat umah, kepala selalu pening. Pantang kalo isteri ada kat umah and I’m off duty, sure at times boleh membuat kepala serabut.

Kalau madam takde kat umah, alangkah tenteramnya hidup ini. Boleh buat ape yang kita suka. Boleh belengkar kat depan TV tanpa sebarang gangguan mental dan fizkal. Pendek kata, FreeDoMmmmmlah!! But hairan bin ajaib, when dia betul-betul pergi meaning “She’s Gone”’ aku plak trasa separuh mati. Sehari dua memanglah shiokkk, no one shouting from the kitchen for help, no one to komen this and that, no one to criticize. Everything will be smooth… Tp masuk hari ketige, I felt something missing. Lebih-lebih lagi bila tuala mandi dah berbau ‘asshemmmm’, tak tau la mana nak cari yang baru. Colgate da nak abis, tak tau kat mana dia stock up. Air suam da habis, malas nk boil… Masuk hari keempat, rindu mula terasa.

Eventhough kat office, ramai yang cun melecun, wajahnya yang ditatap sejak dari tarikh menikah itu juga yang mengetuk pintu hati. Memanglah dia tak se-cun SITI NURHALIZA but the smile yang ikhlas, forever melekat kat ati and sukar ada pengganti.

Apabila rindu mencengkam, semuanya jadi tak tentu arah. Tengok TV citer best pon jadi tak best. Nasik bungkus feberite jadik tak feberite. Makan kat 5 star hotel jadik rasa macam makan kat kedai AA. Lebih-lebih lagi bila laundry basket da makin bertimbun ngan baju kotor, fresh sluar dalam pun dah habis ntuk dipakai. Toilet dah mula licin berdaki.. Lantai dah berbelak, tak dimop.. Every nite, very the lonely, baring atas katil nengok ceiling blindly.. bila lonely gini, baru lah rasa benar kesepian.

Jangan kata sebulan atau setahun, belum seminggu isteri takde kat umah, aku dah rasa separuh pengsan. Masa ni barulah sedar netapa pentingnya seorang wanita bernama isteri… So guys out there.. jgn buli isteri kite. Kalau boleh, tolong dia buat kerja rumah. Bukan dok depan TV every weekend baca paper. Apa ingat dia tu kuli ker?! Maid ker?!! Kan dia tu bini kita, best fren kita, sweetheart kita.. Ingat duit hantaran yang kita kasik dia masa nikah dulu cukup ker nak bayar gaji dia seumur hidup???!

And furthermore, kan sama2 kerja carik rezeki, sama jugak lah buat kerja rumah. Kadang2 bila poket kita sesak, tak ingat ker dialah orang yang paling dekat terdekat kita nak kenyeng-kenyeng duit. Tak kesian ker nengok bini kita? Dah la satu hari keja kat office, balik pulak kena buat kerja rumah lagi… penat tau! Kalaulah aku diberi peluang jadik seorang wanita,… tak rela!!! So to all mums and wives out there, live will be meaningless without You mothers. Uwaaaaaaa!!

“Ibu, ibu… engkaulah ratu hati ku…”

Bagaimana rasanya sehari tanpa ibu? Tak tau lah budak-budak zaman sekarang tp mse kcik, kalo mak takde, sumanya serba tak kena! Jgnkn seminggu, dua hari je dia takde kt uma, hidup mcm da tak bermakna. Memangla, mse mula-mula mak kuar umah, hati melonjak HAPPINESS!! Kalo mak takde, telinga boleh lega sebab if she’s around, for sure 24 hours tak habis-habis berleter…. Pooott peeett. Pooottt, peeett, boleh pecah eardrums. And if mak menjerit , boleh bergegar isi perut. Silap gaya, tingkap jendela tu pon ley tercabut. And if mak takde, Bangzaii!! Merdeka!!! Can do whatever!!!!

Boleh main galah pnjg smpai senja, boleh tgk tv smpai nk kua bijik mata, boleh monteng ngaji, boleh bergayut kt tepon lme2, n plg shiokk, boleh ponteng solat!!

But, the happiness does not long last. Masuk hari kedua dah terasa kehilangan. Sepi betul rasanya bila tak mendengar leteran mak. Rumah jadi sunyi sepi mcm “haunted village”. Pada ketika itulah kite sedar bahawa leteran mak yang seperti murai, sebenarnya penyeri rumah. Tanpa leteran itu, semuanya seperti MATI..

Without mum, hidup ni takde cabaran, no challenging, no suspense. Balik kul brape pon takde orang nak membebel, takde orang nak pulas telinga. Then we realized, jari jemari mak yang suka cubit dan memiat telinga itu la rupanya menjadikan hidup lebih bermakna. Pendek kata, biarlah mak membebel sepanjang hari. Tanpanya, hidup tidak berseri dan bererti. Demikianlah besarnya erti seorang EMAK, IBU, UMMI, MUMMY, MAMA in our life!!

SAYANGI LA KAUM PEREMPUAN KERANA TANPA MEREKA ANDA KEHILANGAN SESUATU..

HARGAI MEREKA!!!!!

rumah

2010-10-27T13:47:00.000+08:00

Finally, I'm home. After so long I stayed in Penang. At last, I'm back for a week or maybe more. Hehe. Well, I'm free for a while. But, after this I have to start struggling again because I still have one paper left. :) Ok, that's later. Now, I'm gonna relax and do whatever I feel like doing. Hehe.

I'm home alone, as my parents are at work and my brother and sister, they're at college. My activities at home would be tv, tv and tv then eat, later online then, hmm. Idk. Hehe. :)

So, guess that's it for now. If anything I'll update later. Bye.. :)

childish

2010-10-23T03:14:00.002+08:00

Tired of childish people.

Grow up will ya.

Don't you ever think of being childish makes you look cute.

It doesn't!

*this is dedicated to the person I meant for.

skrg saya minat ber-tumblr

2010-10-23T03:03:00.003+08:00

Currently, I love posting stuffs in tumblr

Simple yet meaningful

It teaches me to express my feelings in a different kinda way.

my tumblr
check it out

done but not quite done yet

2010-10-20T19:01:00.000+08:00

Well, I just did my last test paper just now. And it was kinda tough. Nvm, I'm done with those tests thingy but not done yet with my finals. Its ahead and just around the corner. It's gonna be next Monday. And I haven't prepared anything. So that's the next thing waiting for me! Yeay! =.="

After the first final paper, I have a bit of freedom. Yahoo!! Gonna go back home. KL wait for me. I'm coming home. Miss home, miss abah and ma, miss kitties, miss everything at home. :)

I'm gonna rest my brain for a while, since it's a long gap between my papers. Maybe I'm gonna stay home for a week and back to Penang again. But then, after that I have to start study again. And soon I'll end my fifth semester. :)

friends or lovers. I think it suits both

2010-10-17T12:38:00.001+08:00

“We are friends and I do like to pass the day with you in serious and inconsequential chatter. I wouldn't mind washing up beside you, dusting beside you, reading the back half of the paper while you read the front. We are friends and I would miss you, do miss you and think of you very often.”

- Jeanette Winterson

now

2010-10-15T21:00:00.001+08:00

Study week is here people and yet I'm stuck in Penang, preparing myself for some tests and soon the final papers. Okay. Can I have some rest here? I'm like freaking damn tired. Well, tired of studying. Just some rest will do. And yeah, tired of thinking what I should do to get you outta mind. Like right now!!

Please. You have been the one that's affecting my mood. So not stable here.. Nevermind, moving on. Okay. The fact that I'm not going back this study week - for once I'm not going home during study week, I have to actually make myself super strong since I haven't gone back home for quite some time. I miss home. It's okay. Trying to be independent. :)

Hmmm, a bit of what happened recently. I had my MUET last Tuesday. It's quite a big exam here in Malaysia if you're about to pursue your study for a Degree. So I'm taking MUET since I'm in my fifth semester. Well, on Tuesday was the speaking test. It went well. Not that I'm saying I'm good at speaking or speak so fluently that I mesmerized the invigilators. Na ahhhh. It was okay. A so-so. I was statisfied. My groupmates were great.We did what we had to do. :) Next is about tests and assignments/reports. So schedule is full with tests and due date for reports and assignments. Urghh, why do the lecturers are giving last minute assingments? Okay, okay. Not gonna nag here. No one wouldn't care less. Now what I have to do is to manage things properly so that it is done in time. :) Yeah, I'll try. I will do my best. Heeee.

Gotta now. More chapters to be read. It has to be finish. Toodles.

love, Akmar

I'm done

2010-10-15T20:37:00.002+08:00

Yes, done with you.

Moving on.

Leaving every memories of you and me behind.

pandang-pandang, jeling-jeling

2010-10-11T17:35:00.000+08:00

Ahaks. Comel di situ. ;)

Pandang-pandang.

Jeling-jeling.

I pandang you.You pandang I.

Opps, eye contact di situ. Malu I taw. Haha

I jeling you. You jeling I.

Lama-lama nnti jadi juling.

I suke you. You tak mgkn suke I kot.

Takpe lah tu.

Jgn risau, I secret admirer you je taw.

P/s: Knp post I skrg makin pelik ja.. Mungkin ada yg tersembunyi di hati kot. Siapa shj yg tahu. Mgkn I sendiri tak tahu!

tententen

2010-10-11T17:05:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was 10.10.10

Well, for some people, it might be a beautiful date, well for me, it's just a so-so.

Didn't actually celebrated the day. Just stayed home and cramped my brain with Fluid Power because the final test was this noon. Alhamdulillah, I think I could do it. :)

And oh, Datuk Dr. Sheikh Muszaphar which is our first astronaut wedded yesterday. I had been waiting for his wedding since morning.

And finally at night I watched his wedding reception. And omg. It was so fairy tale-ish. lol

Romantic. Dr. Sheikh was so handsome like super duper cute and handsome. His bride; Dr. Harlina was also beautiful. Love the couple. They make a perfect match. :)

How I wish I could have such a grand and fairy tale like wedding reception. *winkwink. :D

Dr. Sheikh Muszaphar Shukor and Dr. Harlina.

tuut tett teeeett

2010-10-09T12:35:00.000+08:00

Gossip-gossip.

mari dekat, mari dekat

(cara Sheila Rusli sebut dlm iklan tu) :P

Mcm la ade je nak taw gossip ni kan. Hehe.

Pssss.

Akmar kann..

Die kan...

Suke kan..

kat..

Tuuuutt tettt teeeeettt..

HAHAHA

Mmg takkan bgtw la kan.. Mmg tak!! Haha.

Tmbh-tmbh dlm cit cit (I call my blog cit cit). Malu kot.

Biar pecah di perut jgn pecah di mulut.

Wow, simpulan bahasa di situ. Ntah betul ke tidak.. :)

Takpe la, nak pegi dah ni. Saje je nak tulis benda ni, tgh bosan-bosan buat report and nak penuh kan cit cit ni,

Pegi dulu eh, nak smbg. Focusss. :)

Daaaa.

octo octo october

2010-10-06T01:44:00.001+08:00

Macam comel je kan title kali ni. Hehe.

You have to say it, in an excited kinda way.

Octo octo Octoberrrrrrr. :P

Okay.. Gile ke ape?

=.="

Right, it's 1am and I'm still awake because I gotta study for tomorrow's test. Sigh.

Not gonna talk about my study.

So,

Wishing all of you out there, have a great October yeah! :)

Hope you achieve what you want. And remember to always enjoy yourself in whatever you got yourself into.

October dah menjelma which means by the end of this month. Final exam starts. Weeehooo! -.-"

(okay, knp ckp psl study jgk, ahhh, biarkan lah, nak share jgk, tak kira!).

Serious tak ikhlas nak terima hakikat sem 5 bakal berakhir. Adoi, tak puas nak enjoy lagi ni.

Takpe la. Life must still go on.

Btw, final paper only 2 papers, but satu on the first day of the final exam and the other one is on the last day of final exam. To be exact, it's on the 25 of October and 14 November only..

See, tak ke byk gap tu. Hadoii. Takpe, that gap, akan digunakan dgn baik. Yay, balik KL laaaaa. :P

Baiklah moving on. Nak share some of the things I did in September.

September boleh dikatakan agak happening. Dgn Majlis AD, MEGADAY (actually ni dlm bulan October, 2nd Oct lepas). Mmg everything was fun and exciting. Sori, takde gmbr for all the events, sbb mcm mls nak update psl benda tu semua. I macam malas dah nak update benda2 cmtu, kalau rajin je boleh la nak dipertimbangkan.

Oh yeah, waktu September ni jgk la, I learned that we don't always get what we want. Mmg pn kan. It's so true.

And it's always like that. But think on the positive side, maybe ade hikmah why it's that way and why it happens. Allah lebih mengetahui. :)

Tp I taw yg kite boleh cube utk dapatkan something even better. Hehe. Tu yg best kan.

Even better right, which means dpt something yang extraordinary. Haha.

Eh eh, I dah nak mule merepek ni, guess I should stop here.

Till then. Bye. (;

love, Akmar

impossible

2010-09-30T21:11:00.000+08:00

Impossible by Shontelle

Heart this song. It does describe a bit how I feel inside. :)

Enjoy the lyrics..

I remember years ago

Someone told me I should take

Caution when it comes to love

I did, I did

And you were strong and I was not

My illusion, my mistake

I was careless, I forgot

I did

And now when all is done

There is nothing to say

You have gone and so effortlessly

You have won

You can go ahead tell them

Tell them all I know now

Shout it from the roof tops

Write it on the sky line

All we had is gone now

Tell them I was happy

And my heart is broken

All my scars are open

Tell them what I hoped would be

Impossible, impossible

Falling out of love is hard

Falling for betrayal is worst

Broken trust and broken hearts

I know, I know

Thinking all you need is there

Building faith on love and words

Empty promises will wear

I know, I know

And now when all is gone

There is nothing to say

And if you're done with embarrassing me

On your own you can go ahead tell them

Tell them all I know now

Shout it from the roof tops

Write it on the sky line

All we had is gone now

Tell them I was happy

And my heart is broken

All my scars are open

Tell them what I hoped would be

Impossible, impossible

Impossible, impossible!

Ooh impossible (yeah yeah)

I remember years ago

Someone told me I should take

Caution when it comes to love

I did

Tell them all I know now

Shout it from the roof tops

Write it on the sky line

All we had is gone now

Tell them I was happy

And my heart is broken

All my scars are open

Tell them what I hoped would be

Impossible, impossible

I remember years ago

Someone told me I should take

Caution when it comes to love

I did..

Sorry

2010-09-28T12:43:00.001+08:00

It's really hard to please everyone.

They might not be statisfy with what you do or whatsoever.

I've tried my best to sort things out.

As a human being I do make mistakes. Stupid mistakes at times.

Which sometimes might not be accepted.
I'm sorry.

I don't really hide things.
Each of the words coming from my mouth is usually what I feel inside me.
What I feel like bursting out, I'd say it either in a polite or harsh way.
So no offense.
However, I try my best to confess what I feel in a polite way.
The best!

I'm sorry for what've I done and said.

I know, you might think that I easily say sorry. But, I mean it.

Like really mean it.

Please apologize for all my wrong doings.

Please,

forgive me if I ever did anything to you.

love, Akmar

It's better to dream than having nothing to do. :D

2010-09-23T19:03:00.002+08:00

It's been a while since I last updated my blog. Well, not missing it though. *evil :). Well, I'm having such an awesome-ness time!! Actually, nowadays, I'm into poems. That's weird for me. I never liked literature in high school. But, it's not wrong to try something new ain't it? It's just that, when I read my poems again, urghhh, I feel like puking. So not me okay. Haha.

I've been writing poems about many things but mostly it's about my life. Since it's based on my super awesome life *winkwink. I'm not gonna post any of those poems. :) It would definitely embarrass me. Hehe.

Regarding about dreams, everybody has their own dreams. It's either a dream they want it to come true aka goals (well, sort of!) or just those fairy tales dreamy thingy. :) I dream both. Yeah! Both!! But I prefer my fairy tale dreams. Lol. I could laugh alone if I ever think of those super lame dreams. Haha. Hope you dream as well! Ohh, once in a while should do it, not always okay? If you dream but never wanting to put effort on those dreams, it won't come true. Hehe. So basically, I'm trying my greatest to actually achieve my dreams. I don't mind whether it's my fairy tale dream or the dream of being someone useful one day. Insya-Allah!

By the way, if I ever tell you my fairy tale dreams, I'm sure you'll laugh (well, it's actually for those that are close to me, they just know about me!). When I think again, ermm, never mind I'll keep it to myself. :)

Enough of dreams, back to reality. This semester is about to end, around 1-2 months to go! Like what, I'm in my last sem for next semester. Then I'll further my studies somewhere which suits me mentally and physically. :D

I'm stopping here. Tired of typing and I'm hungry! Toodles..

Before I end, here some words of wisdom..

Not much happen without a dream.
And for something great to happen, there must be a great dream.
Much more than a dreamer is required to bring it to reality; but the dream must be there first.

(Robert Greenleaf)

Let's dream big people and make it into reality. Yeahhh! :)

selamat hari raya aidilfitri semua. :)

2010-09-10T02:39:00.001+08:00

Ramadhan dah tgglkan kite and now dah msk bulan Syawal which means kite dah boleh beraya. Berharap agar dpt bertemu dgn Ramadhan pada tahun akan datang. Insya-Allah.. Jadi di kesempatan ini, aku ingin mengucap kan Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri. Maaf zahir dan batin. Aku nak mintak maaf jikalau aku ada buat salah dan silap, samada secara sengaja atau tak disengajakan. Aku bukanlah manusia yg sempurna, yg mana aku melakukan kesilapan tanpa aku sedari. Let's forgive and forget.

Hmmm, Syawal kali ini bakal disambut secara sederhana, sama seperti Syawal yg sebelum ini. Aku akan pulang ke kampung selepas menunaikan solat sunat Aidilfitri. Insya-Allah.. Bertolak dr KL dan spend lebih kurang 2-3 hari di kampung (kampung mak and ayah aku la ye). Raya di kampung aku mmg kejap je, tak lme. Yg selebihnya, just celebrate kat rumah sahaja bersama keluargaku.

Cerita sedikit tentang persiapan utk menyambut Syawal, well mmg kelam kabut secara amnya, hal ini kerana kesempitan waktu (apasal ayat formal sgt =.=||). Aku smpai KL 5 Sept, so mmg agak lmbt sbnrny, memandagkan org lain dah blk a few days before. Ok, nevermind. Jd, hari yg tggl tu digunakan secara baik utk aku menyediakan barang-barang raya, contohnya, baju raya aku dan yg sewaktu dgn nya, serta makanan yg enak-enak utk menyambut Aidilfitri; rendang, kuah kacang, semua tu laaa.. :)) Tp tak ksh la, wlpn last minute, I get to spend such a quality time with my family. Mmg dpt rasa the bond that we build since I could remember. Aku sgt happy. Wlpn ada a bit chaos here and there (nak pilih and cari kedai utk beli baju raya) tp still seronok dgn kekecohan tu. :) Baru dpt feel raya tu kan... Eh,, before I write unnecessary things, might as well I stop here since tomorrow pun nak bgn awal nak menyambut Aidilfitiri. I don't wanna be late. So, yeah, I'll stop here. Toodles.

ohhh, yeaaahh. Before I end this.

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri again. :))

Maaf zahir dan batin.

September

2010-09-02T18:06:00.008+08:00

Wake me up when September ends. Nah, doesn't fit me.

Been waiting jgk for September sbb nak raya dah. :)

August was amazing.

I'm loving every minutes of August. The breeze of August air is just.. ahhhh. :)

Since September is here already. Hope for a even better month.

Haaaa, wierd! I'm not saying much! Because I gtg.

oh happy life now ;)

2010-09-01T15:00:00.002+08:00

For the time being I’m really happy. Just so you know, there are so many unpredictable beautiful moments I’m going through right now. Oh, I thank the Almighty for such moments and I’m looking forward for more!

with love,

Akmar

Malaysia dah 53 tahun. ;)

2010-08-31T15:21:00.000+08:00

Tanggal 31, bulan 8, 57

Itulah tarikh keramat for all Malaysian.

53 years sounds old, but it's what we all want. FREEDOM!!

Free from intruders.

I'm grateful to be living in such a peaceful and harmony country.

With great foods and weather (well, sometimes it gets really hot, that I wish snow would fall from the sky).

I can have what ever I want here.

Anything, just name it.

We're a multiracial country.

We celebrate all festivals. From Hari Raya Aidilfitri to Christmas to Chinese New Year to Deepavali and much more.

There's so much to describe and tell about Malaysia, but I guess I'll stop here.

To know more about great places and the excitement in Malaysia, please do Google about Malaysia. :))

MERDEKA!! MERDEKA!! MERDEKA!!

(shouting out loud, well just a monologue shout)

bila bosan

2010-08-27T17:51:00.002+08:00

Basically as a student we have such a busy schedule, we have to manage everything on our own. So, we have to wisely use our time and not to waste it (somehow, I always waste mine. Hehe) Not to talk much about this timing or whatsoever. Yeah, my life was kinda hectic a few days back, with so many tests, reports and assignment to be done and submitted.

Now, I have at least one week left to stay in Penang. And on 5 Sept I'm off to KL. Oh, home sweet home. Yeahh! Can't wait to go back home but a bit sad as Ramadhan's gonna end.

Anyways, after the holiday, I still have one more test left. Never mind , I'm so gonna try to study at home. As if!! Haha. We'll see, I bet I won't study. Home is for pleasure people, no time to study. Lol. Please people don't do this at home. HAHA.

Ermm, I actually don't have much to say. So I guess I'll just stop here.Till then. :) Toodles.

2010-08-24T22:12:00.000+08:00

I met a snatch thief and he has snatch my heart ;)

2010-08-22T11:27:00.001+08:00

I'll wait for you, till it's worth waiting for.

But it ain't gonna be that long. See what's gonna happen in the future. ;)

ke - jealous - an

2010-08-14T22:10:00.005+08:00

Iye, aku sgt jeles bile aku log on kat Facebook. Semua update status balik rumah, berbuka bersama keluarga dan mcm-mcm lagi yg berkaitan dgn rumah. =.=" Adoii, dah la Ramadhan kali ni, I can't be home. Dang! Ni semua sbb tests EVERY WEEKENDS. Byg kan, setiap hari minggu mmg ade test. Tak kisah la ade test tu, cume awat la pi buat hari minggu, kan aku dah tak boleh nak balik. -.-" Hmm. *kuat Akmar! Ntah2, lecturer jealous kot die tak blh balik, so die pun buat tests during the weekends so that kiteorg pun tak blh blk. Muahaha. Okay, tu satu hal, makan pun dah tak berselera, nak mkn mskan Ma. *okay, kuat lagi Akmar, sabar2.

Dah dah dah, skrg ni tgk tv, hmm, pulak, lagu raya dah bukak, my gosh, tak ke pilu hati ni (eee, geram nye, tgh ddk tulis2 ni, ade plak ulat-ulat terbang kat aku -.-", gigit plak tu, sakit taw tak!) Dah tu kulit aku jd mangse, timbul la merah-merah, bengkak-bengkak kat kulit yg tulus mulus ni. Ahaks. *gembirakan diri sendiri, sbb dah bosan sgt. Nsb baik Ma selalu call, terasa jgk la disygi dan di ingati. *wink wink :D Apalah Ma and Abah duduk buat kat rumah ketika kami bertiga takde. *sedih jgk fkirkan benda tu. Tp mesti mereka redha, anak nak besar kan..

Eeee, tak sbr pula rasenye nak balik, hehe, baru 4 hari puasa kot, lmbt lg dowh. Hakeleyhh!! :P Raya kali ni, Iqah akan balik dgn aku dari Penang ditemani Balqis sekali. I'm driving. Second time travel jauh, wah dah terasa besar pula. :) Hmmm, okay la, tu je nak luahkan utk kali ni, ape-ape pun, korg yg balik tu, bergembira lah, nnti turn aku pula, tu pun mse dah nak dekat-dekat raya. =.=|| Oh ye, Ma ade ckp, balik-balik aku ke KL nak beli baju raya. Yeay! Yeay! Tu yg aku suke tu. Tak sbr nye. Hmm, nak beli ape ehh?? Baik aku buat list. Muahaha :D

Ramadhan

2010-08-12T20:12:00.000+08:00

Alhamdulillah, tahun ni aku dpt menyambut kedatangan Ramadhan lg.

Syukur juga hari pertama Ramadhan aku telah lalui dgn sempurna.

Di kesempatan ini, ingin aku mengucapkan selamat berpuase kepada seluruh muslimin dan muslimat.

Semoga kite dilimpah kurnia dariNya. Rezeki dan pahala yg berlipat ganda.

Tidak lupe dpt mengerat ukhuwah sesama kite.

Itu shj buat kali ini.

Jom kite berterawikh. :)

Good deed. ;)

2010-08-10T14:08:00.010+08:00

Me again. Teheee. :)

This is what I hate when I once update my blog, I always want to update more often. Deyyy!

So yeah, regarding the title of this post I had done (which I considered) a good deed.

That is.. Donating my red bloody blood. Lol.

Fyi, I've been wanting to donate my blood since my first semester in university, but I haven't had the courage and guts to actually do it. And finally, in my fifth semester I managed to have the courage to donate it. *claps for myself.

I was nervous, anxious, scared and at the same I was excited too!

Not to mention my nerve was going hell fast, the doctor was kinda suprised and ask me to rest the first time I went to check with him. After 5 min. of rest I came to him again, still, my nerve was beating fast. Maybe I have a fast beating nerve which I myself didn't notice. Derrr~

The process was okay, it's not like what I used to think about it. Rough and the nurses might be those kerek nurses who look at you like thay want to eat you alive! They were supportive, kind and nice. See, never judge something till you've gone through it yourself. :) Unless, if you have any bad experience..

I admit, it was kinda painful the first time when the needle gets in and when they're taking it off you. But it's an experience I won't forget.

Oh yeah, I also won't donate my blood ever again until I marry (if I would ever be allowed by my husband -.-"), actually my parents didn't allow me to donate my blood. Since I did it first then tell them, they were okay but still dislikes it. Hmm, I wonder why..

Seriously it feels great to donate your blood, you feel the umphh-ness, the deed-ness, the pain, the kindness, all those good feeling you'd get if you experience it yourself. :)

So come one people, let's donate our blood. Help those in need. :)

Here are the good moments captured during my blood donation.

Imma B +ve blood. :)

OMG I'm scared and shocked by the size of the needle..

yikeees!

Now, it's already okay. Smileeee. :)

Hey, that's my blood inside that pint.

Nuha was the one beside me during my blood donation. Thanks sis!

Oh, she wanted to donate her blood too, unfortunately her level of haemoglobin wasn't enough.

Hope someday she'll get to experience it herself.

Till then. Bye!

Love,

Akmar ;)

bon appetit! nahh

2010-08-10T03:19:00.004+08:00

Bon appetit means enjor your meal. Duhh! Well, it's what I really need right now. Yes, to actually enjoy every meal I take. I've totally lost my appetite. Just thinking of how am I suppose to survive during Ramadhan. I miss home cooked food like really much. Not that I'm saying I'm in a homesick mood or whatsoever. I just need good quality of food. Tasty which turns me on. :) Every food that I take now, it's like a burden for me to actually finish it. I tried real hard but I still can't afford to finish it.

Frankly speaking I'm not having a good diet here. I don't eat anything during the day I only take dinner and yet I still can't finish my meal. Even if I'm hungry. :(

So to gain back my appetite, we cooked our own meal last Sunday. It really does bring back my appetite. Just because it's the food we cooked by ourself and not to mention it really is delicious. We cooked spaghetti. I was so excited the fact that I could eat a home cooked food even though it's just spaghetti. Well, just for that day I ate a lot. Now I'm back to where I was. No appetite. Maybe I have to cook everyday but I don't think I have the time to actually cook as my class are quite pack. Hmm. Oh here I show some pictures of our spaghetti that day.

Here is the spaghetti frankfurter with orange carrot. :)

Yummy! It fills up my tummy!

Dang doesn't it rhyme? :P

told ya, I finished it. And I filled it up for the second time.

Me, Nuha and Teot was decorating our plates.

This belongs to Nuha. Mine is a the top.

This is Teot's

Now that I'm back with my mode of no appetite, I somehow will try to push myself to eat at least something. Thanks to Nuha, she's trying her best to cook so that I eat. And I, myself will try to cook for my empty appetite-less tummy.

Oh yeah, that day, my parents called they asked how my health and those-questions-that-parents-always-wanna-know. I did tell them that I've lost my appetite, they were kinda worried, especially my dad since I'm choosy about food. Hmm. Don't worry, I have great people around here who can force me to eat. :) But, heck I'm still not okay, I don't get the chance to break the fast with my family, because I won't be coming home for the next 3 to 4 weeks. Yikees.. I'm so gonna have to deal with that! Last minute shopping, no breaking the fast one whole family (damn, I miss that!) and most of all I miss my parents, siblings, home and my fatty kittens (balckie and whitey).. I'm just gonna be strong, it's a sacrifice I have to make for the sake of my future which I ain't gonna know like what Man used to say and adviced me. :)

August :)

2010-08-04T00:35:00.000+08:00

It's August!!

Bg rakyat jelata Malaysia, bulan August merupakan bulan kemerdekaan. Semangat Malaysia skitt! Weehoo!

So, this August my life is starting to get more busy since our first test starts on the second week of August. OMG.. That's a bit about my studies. Other plannings will be taken into account but LATER! ;)

And not to forget the month of Ramadhan is just around the corner. This would be my third time fasting in Penang in 2 and half years.. Can't wait for Ramadhan. Love the food, love the condition. Love everything about Ramadhan. :) Hoping for a great Ramadhan. Insya-Allah.

For the time being this is my plan for August.

Oh yeah. July was splendid. I stand on my own. I did what I had to do. I confessed what I had to confessed. Kinda proud of myself actually. Never thought I'd manage to do it. *claps. ;)

Also, I'm having a good time with new housemates. Things are going well with them. They suit me well. Really well indeed. Love!

Had a few fights with some people which I kinda enjoy. Came out with extraordinary solutions and getting better on it. HAHA *not gonna write it in here. Not revealing our big secret. Lol.

Hmmm, what else. I can't remember. Hehe. I guess I should just stop here. Toodles. :))

Bye people. Have a good day and may god bless you. *pergh, first time kot tulis cm ni. Ahaks. :P

Kejujuran

2010-07-30T14:22:00.002+08:00

Lately ni aku suke bercerita tentang kehidupan yg berlaku around aku. Iye, semua org ade hidup masing-masing and mahu lead their own life. So do I. Ckp psl hidup ni, I admit life sometimes can be really hard and complicated and yet it can be sweet, interesting, exciting or whatsoever. Bukan sng nak puaskan semua hati yg ade around kite. Tambah-tambah dgn org yg kite rapat. Aku kadang-kadang pening fikirkan pasal benda-benda cmni, yg secara tibe-tibe menyebabkan aku tension dan muram tak tentu pasal. Geram la..

Aku bersyukur jgk sbb aku ade kwn yg aku sgt rapat dpt memahami aku. Aku jgk bersyukur yg mereka ni dpt terima aku seadanya. Mereka dpt terima opinion aku, nasihat aku, memahami mslh aku dan macam-macam lagi. Yang paling penting mereka dpt bantu aku harungi masalah aku dgn memberi nasihat dan pandangan yg bernas. Terima kasih aku ucapkan.

Aku pelik kadang-kadang orang suke judge seseorang dgn mudah. Dorg tak kenal lg, tp ckp mcm dah kenal lama. Yg teruk tu kadang-kadang org tu kena tuduh mcm-mcm. Aku selalu jgk kena judge. Aku tak kenal dorg (tak selalu lepak bersama atau berchit-chat), tp kenapa dorg nak judge aku dgn mudah. Suke hati ckp aku mcm tu la, mcm ini la. Ahhh, aku tak kisah kau nak ckp apa psl aku, cume jgn la nak hasut org lain cmtu jgk. Kau tak puas hati ckp la kat aku depan-depan. Kan lebih mudah begitu. Aku taw, this sounds like aku ni jenis suke cari gaduh, oh tidak sama sekali, tp aku lebih suke berterus-terang. Tak nak la berdolak-dalih. Kejujuran itu penting. :)

Aku suke berterus-terang. I think it makes a friendship stronger and closer. I'm glad I have close friends yg aku boleh berterus-terang. If they aren't statisfied with me they'd just tell me what they don't like and later I'll try my best to change. Not that I'm saying yg aku ni jenis yg suke berubah and takde pendirian diri. Tp kalau it's for your own good, why not?

So people let's be honest to each other. Oh ye kalau nak jujur tu, pertuturan haruslah dijaga juga ye. Jgn main serbu je. Karang org tu tak boleh terima plak and later something else plak happen. Hati dan perasaan org haruslah dijaga juga.

untitle

2010-07-25T14:30:00.001+08:00

Just macam lame tak ckp psl love life aku.. Ahaks. Ckp psl love life, pernah wujud ke love life aku?? Haaa, hanya Allah je taw. Hehe, ayat nak gempak je kan.. I like. Tapi kan, tipu la kalau aku kate love life aku tak pnah wujud. :) Selama 20 tahun hidup kat dunia ni, kalau kate tak mmg tipu.. Tp aku admit la, after 20 years of life mmg aku dah gone through a lot.. Ceh, mcm dah lme sgt je kan hidup, walhal baru dua dekad je. Fuihh, bunyi dekad tu mcm besar sgt je kan.. Haha, serius aku dah mula nak merepek ni. Baiklah, kembali pada tajuk utama, wait ade plak tajuk utama utk post ni, sedangkan post ni diberi tajuk 'Untitle', maka aku boleh ckp psl ape yg aku mau dlm post kali ni.

Okay okay, so, pasal love life td. Aku mengaku wlpn aku ni bukan jenis yg senang nak couple dgn org tp aku pernah rsa sakit psl benda remeh temeh ni. Even kadang-kadang tu aku tak kena, tp aku tgk org yg hurt psl love mmg skt, ade yg smpai tak nak belajar, nangis mate bengkak dan lain-lain. Haihz, tak payah la korg.. Igt, ade lg org yg syg kan korg. And wlpn aku takde byk pengalaman about coupling or whatsoever but aku byk jgk nasihat org psl love thingy ni. Hehe. Mcm Doctor Love pn ade jgk aku ni. Byk jgk org tny nasihat aku. Aku gembire dpt bantu org psl love-love ni dan aku gembire jgk bile ade org nak tlg dgn love life aku.

Walaubagaimanapun, aku akui aku pernah jgk rase down sgt fikir psl love-love ni. Mase terkena tu, mcm terhantuk kepala, lalu berkata "haik cmni ke rase die", pedih sgt. Tp takpe aku kuat kan diri and just motivate myself. Tu je aku mampu buat. Skrg aku lebih kuat dan tak senang nak fall for someone. Aku sekarang sekadar crush dgn org je. Aku mmg byk crush dgn org even junior aku sendiri aku boleh crush. Hehe. Kadang-kadang tu, kwn sekelas atau mungkin juga kwn kepada kwn aku. Ah, tak kisah la org nak ckp aku ni suke cuci mate tgk lelaki and crush sna sni. Janji aku bahagia. And serius agak bahagia takde commitment terhadap seorang yg blh dipanggil kekasih. Hehe. Tp at times I do feel lonely jgk. But with the help of great people around me, I managed to have a happy life.

Drpd aku serabutkan kepala aku dgn benda-benda cmni. Skrg ni aku tak fikirkan sgt about love thingy, kalau dia nak dtg, dtg la, aku terima, kalau tak aku tak mencari pun. :) Biar takdir menetukan segalanya. Ececeh. Haha. Aku cuma mahu fokus terhadap diriku, familiku, pelajaranku dan apa yg penting dan perlu difikirkan shj. Dan last sekali aku sygkan agamaku, diriku, familiku, keluargaku, kawan-kawanku dan ape-ape je la. :) I know this sounds so cliche. Tp itulah kenyataan. Hal ttg love thingy bukan terus dilupakan tp akan dibiarkan dahulu. Bakal difikirkan kemudian. One fine day! :)

I am me ;)

2010-07-23T23:49:00.002+08:00

I am me!!

I am special in a way which only special people can accept me.

If you can accept me, means you're special. :)

Akmar 200610

Ps Akmar don't bother what other people might say or think about you

july

2010-07-23T23:35:00.001+08:00

Hehe. It's almost the end of July and yet I'm writing about July, as if July just started yesterday. Lol.

Sorry for no new updates lately. I'm kinda busy plus there's no internet connection at my new rent house. And now that I'm home. Just wanna update my bloggie. :)

Life with my new house mates is great. I'm having such a good and fun time with them.

We share a lot of things. Gossiping and stuff. :))

As for now, my July is going great. My studies are okay too just that I'm getting use to my class schedule. It's a bit exhausting. Even though the class aren't that packed but the waiting makes me tired. The gaps between each class is a lot and long. :/

Oh yeah, not to forget, June!! Haha. It's way over. :P

June was really fun. Yes, indeed. I love June. With my birthday and all. Everything's just awesome.

Not writing much. Till then.

Sent Atiqah to Arau, Perlis

2010-07-01T02:15:00.003+08:00

As I promised you in my previous post. I'm gonna post more pictures of us , one family in Perlis. So here it is. Enjoy!!

Seriously byk giler kot gmbr. HAHA. Tp still tu bukan kesemuanye yg di-snap.

Kami berada di Perlis dr 25 - 27 June 2010

25June2010:

Sebelum bertolak, family picture duluuu.. :)

bakal student ni haaa..

view utk ke UiTM Perlis mmg saujana mata memandang. Hehe..

Setiba nye di UiTM Perlis.. Aku agak terkejut ye.. UiTM Perlis is way bigger than my UiTM Penang. Duhhh!! And yes, I think Atiqah's gonna have a great time here. Even though there's no shopping mall in Perlis. Hehe

Ni kat Kompleks Sukan UiTM Perlis. Siap ade stadium lagi kot!! (:

I LOVE THIS PICTURE!!

the five of us.

Oh ye, tgk Iqah berangan nak kasi speech. Ahaks..

Dinner mlm tu, mkn seafood! My favourite! Haaaa, makan smpai mabukkk! :D

26June2010:

Hari pendaftaran bagi Atiqah. Mmg jam teruk nak masuk ke UiTM =.=" Almost one hour dlm kereta. I'm like What??

Ni kat parking, nak angkut beg budak ni ke dlm bilik die. Nak pegi kolej die satu hal lagi, jauh pulak tu, dgn nak angkut beg yg byk2 ni.. Tp takpe, adik punya pasal kan... :)

Tgk tu, byk kan barang die. Hehe.

Bilik die, one room for 3 people. Best kan? Time aku kat Penang dulu, satu bilik 4 org.. So ni waktu nak letak cadar and susun all her stuffs.

Ni waktu nak hantar die dah. Kesian die nak nangis. Don't cry sayang. Be strong.. Biase la nak jauh dgn family, normal thing.. Everyone goes through this at least once.

Sewaktu Iqah sudah di hantar. Kiteorg jln2.. Ke Kangar dan merayau-rayau around Perlis. :)) Ia menyeronokkan. Stop by at the beach. Love the scenery.

Jagung bakar satu!! :)

Dinner mlm tu tanpa Atiqah.. Hehe. Guess what, I feel so lonely kot!! Baru je hntr. Yet I miss her so much!

27June2010:

Went to Padang Besar.

After pegi Padang Besar met Atiqah for the last time before we head back to KL. Met her for like 3 mins je kot. Gosh. She looked so tired. :(

Then started our journey back to KL. Before that, stop at Pekan Rabu dulu. As I wanted to see with my own eyes how Pekan Rabu looked like. Hehe

Kat sini you can get all sort of things. Dari barang perkahwinan ke bakul-bakul hiasan utk rumah ke pakaian utk pergi Haji ke baju melayu utk hari raya dan macam-macam lagi. Kuih tradisional Melayu pun ade di jual di sini. Seronok tgk byk barang-barang di jual. Tp tak beli pun.. :))

Before nak leave Pekan Rabu, we passed by our former Prime Minister pny Klinik. Klinik Tun Dr. Mahathir. :)

Hmmm, tu je la kot. Bubbye, till next post then. ;))

Nak tidur, lgpn dah penat. Fyi, since Iqah pegi Uni ni, boleh kate everyday call die. ;))

2010-06-26T23:57:00.001+08:00

Gambar hantar Iqah ke UiTM td. *this post is from Perlis :))

I miss her!

Even though I just sent her off to UiTM Perlis just now, I can feel her absence.

I miss her so much.

Dah takde bising-bising die. Baru taw bosan nye takde die dlm hidup aku. Adoii.

Esok before blk KL, nak visit die dulu. Then baru head to KL.

Takpe, Insya-Allah nnti jumpe lg. Kite jumpe kat rumah ye adikku. I'm missing you darling. Sob sob..

I'll post more pictures of us in Perlis once I reach KL. Okay people gtg!!

belated birthday thanks

2010-06-25T02:24:00.003+08:00

A belated birthday thanks. Ahah. :D

Since my birthday was last Monday.

I wanna thanks to those who wished. It is much appreciated. Never thought that I'm gonna get so much birthday wishes, whether through texts, phone calls or Facebook.Thank you so much. :))

oh yeah.

For my 20th birthday.

I'm trying to be:

A great Muslim. An obedient daughter. A good student (not to aim for a 4 flat though). A caring sister. A concern cousin and friend, etc.

Some of the things I wanna reduce:

Less talk. Less gossips. Less sleep (not that I don't sleep at all, but sleep only at night). Less food. Less waste on money, etc.

This is not all, I can't think of more, but I'm sure it'll be a long list if I think deeply. :)

So, lets stop here.

Happy belated birthday to me and my brother; Hafiz. :D

Hope our dreams come true.

last few days

2010-06-25T01:50:00.002+08:00

Been so busy lately, no time to update. Just to summarize some of the activities I did a few days ago! Not gonna write much, just some description based on the pictures.

Saturday, 19 June 2010:

Went to watch a Retro Concert at DBKL's Auditorium. And it's freeee!! :)

Since it's a retro concert so most of the songs sang were unfamiliar to me but I did enjoy myself. :)

This is Jamal Abdillah.

His performance was awesome and it was mesmerizing. :)

Artists performed that night.

From right: Datuk Ahmad Jais, Hail Amir, Azlina Aziz, Ramlah Ram, Adnan Terlena ( Idk him at all..Haha), and Jamal Abdillah.

Sunday, 20 June 2010:

Went to Ateh's house to welcome her home back from Mecca.

So hang out with Imah; my cousin, but she's more like a sister to me. Love her.

Monday, 21 June 2010:

Finally, the big day is here. Which is my birthday. It was a simple birthday celebration. Went to Juara TomYam at Kampung Baru for a family dinner, but Hafiz wasn't around. He celebrated his birthday with his friend. Oh yeah, I forgot to mention for those who doesn't know, my brother and I share the same birth date. :D Ain't that cool?

There were so many foods. The foods was great.

Tuesday, 22 June 2010:

I'm done with long hair. So, I cut my hair. It feels greaaattt! :))

Presenting my new hair and look! Haha

Friday I'm off to Perlis. Atiqah's continuing her studies there. Gonna miss her later. :(

Then next week I'm back to Penang. Urghhh, I'm not ready yet..

It's Fathers' Day la..

2010-06-20T00:00:00.130+08:00

Right, today is Fathers' Day.

I'm sure all of you out there loves your dad, right?

I love my dad so much.

He means a lot to me!!

My dad has always been there for me. Whether in happy nor sad times. He gives me useful advices -besides my mom, brother and lil sister. I'm grateful and thankful to Allah for giving me such a great dad -well actually a great family. Abah you're number 1 world greatest dad. Well, that's according to me. :) Like what people use to say, MY DAD MY HERO! ;)) and so is my dad, he's my HERO!!

My dad has been one of those people who listens to my problems, lame stories, goofy jokes and much more. He always give me moral supports when I'm down. Whenever I feel empty, I'd give him a call or text him. We could talk for hours. There's so much to share with him. I love him!

There's one time, when I was so worried about my studies and fed up with people's attitude, I didn't know whom I should tell my problems to, so I told all my problems to him. I was crying so badly. Somehow my dad was so calm and wanted me to be as patient as I can be and at the same time he also tried to calm and make me stop cyring. Then, he said, "Kakak jgn nangis, kalau kakak nangis, nnti kakak buat abah risau. Kakak jauh dari abah, kakak kena kuat. Okay?" and so I cried even more. At that moment, I knew that, I was making him worried when I cried in dealing with my problems, so now I try my best not to cry if I have something so bad happen to me. Until now I still tell my problems to my dad.

My dad is a patient guy, he rarely get mad and scold us; three siblings. Well, of course he's a human being, which means sometimes he does get mad, if and only if we did something so wrong. Somehow he cools down so quickly, which made me love him even more. Hehe. My dad concerns about our studies. He always ask us whether we're doing well or having problems in it. I always says that this thing is hard, that thing is difficult. And he would say just a simple yet an ~~irritating~~ sentence -.-". But somehow it motivates me, which is " Ala, makan pun susah sebenarnya, tapi sebab dah biase buat so senang la kan, so kalau camtu, kena la buat betul-betul, study betul-betul, nnti senang jugak la benda tu. Betul tak?" and I would like "Hmmm.." plus a long sigh each and every time he says this. Hehe. :)) He also treats us stuff if we do well in our studies or the things we're involved in and that's what's making me more motivated to do the best in everything I do. ;)) Before you get bored reading such a long post, might as well I stop before I myself get tired of typing.

Lastly, I wanna wish a very Happy Fathers' Day to all dads in the whole wide world. Exaggerating things here. Lol. Have a nice day. And I hope you enjoy every moment you had with your dad as I enjoy myself with him.

HAPPY FATHER'S DAY ABAH!! ;))

oh nozz my teeth

2010-06-19T02:15:00.004+08:00

cute colorful teeth

Friday morning, woke up early just to pay a visit to the dentist.

To my surprise, the teeth that I thought was in A GOOD CONDITION was actually in A BAD CONDITION. ;(( omg. I was sad and down when I knew the truth about my teeth.

From now on, I'm going to take good care of my teeth. Actually, intensive care! :((

And oh, I have to visit the dentist again before I head back to Penang. There are still some things left to done about my teeth. :( Damn! It's painful!

Take care of your teeth before this happen. :)

Proper care for your teeth and gum to stay healthy throughout your life:

1. Brush your teeth twice a day. If possible brush after every meal. Brushing could removes plaque.

2. Floss your teeth once a day. Flossing removes food particles and plaque between the teeth, which your toothbrush couldn't reach.

3. Eat right. Eat food that contains less sugars and starches.

4. Visit your dentist regularly, at least once in 6 months. :) It's for your check-up and professional cleaning.

5. Rinse your mouth with antibacterial mouth rinses in which it reduces the bacteria that causes plaque and gum disease.
*for more info, please Google on your own. Haha.

So, what are you waiting for people? Let's take good care of our teeth.

Teeth are indeed important to us. It's for you to eat, it makes you look beautiful, also it make sure you speak fluently, and etc.

Make your teeth smile and happy. :)

Nur Atiqah

2010-06-14T01:33:00.005+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ATIQAH!!

Nur Atiqah, Happy birthday my dear. Ececeh. trying to be sweet. Oh, not me!!

Atiqah, you've been a great younger sister to me. Well, actually, more like a big sister. Lol, no offense, what I mean is you've given me so much support, it seems like you have much more experience than I do. You taught me a lot about my life, which I myself didn't realize. You've given me strength. You build faith in myself. You've been a very good listener. Hearing all those craps of mine; my-so-not-sad-or-cool-stories. You brought up my spirit. I love you.

We have done so much things together; the dancings, punchings, fightings and all sortta things. I thank Allah, for giving me such a wonderful sister, even though sometimes you do get on my nerves, urghhh. How can I live my life without you by my side. I'd be an empty person. Thanks for all the joy you brought into my life. I thank you again. Opps, why does this birthday wish seems weird.. HAHA. Never mind. ;)

As you're going to the university, I wish you best of luck. Study smart and hard. Make abah and ma proud. I know you can be a successful person. Enjoy every moment of your life. Last but not least, DO LOVE ME!! HAHA. And yes, always buy or treat me something nice and sweet. Muackks. LOL.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ATIQAH!!

SWEET 18!!

*what she's 18 and I'm like almost 20. hahaha

Atiqah and her 2 heroes.. :)

Atiqah's queen

and finally

Her goddess Fairy sister... Wahahahaha. Ain't that cool? :))

football craze

2010-06-12T23:32:00.002+08:00

Now, everyones talking about football. Come home early from work to watch football, updating status in Facebook's about football, almost everything is about football. Especially the boys. Everyone in the whole wide world knows the World Cup is here and held in South Africa. So come on, let's watch football for a month. :)

To be honest, I'm not really a hard core fan of football. But I do know what's happening in the world of football. I support Germany. I don't really know the exact reason to why I support the team. I guess because the players are cute. Or maybe I'm just into Germany itself. Or maybe I love Michael Schumacher which spontaneously drag me to support Germany. :) Oh, don't bother about it. I was just wondering.

Fifa begins on 11 June 2010 and end on 11 July 2010. The first match was between South Africa and Mexico. It was a tie. Every time the player tries or shoot in the goal my dad and brother yells. And omg, do I have to deal with this for a month? Lol. Or should I just join? Wahaha. We'll see.. Hehe.

This is definitely sure, during the final, I'm so in Penang. I'm gonna watch the game there. I'll try my best to absolutely make myself free to watch the final. Besides, the semester just begin. I don't think I'm gonna be loaded with assignments. :)) That's it for now, later people.

resultku

2010-06-11T12:30:00.000+08:00

Smlm penantian berakhir. Result utk sem 4 sudah keluar.

Syukur I got an unexpected result.

Alhamdulillah dekan. Wlpn tak 4 flat, still I'm grateful and thankful.

Ayat sme je kan, dr last sem, last last sem, and last last last sem. HAHA.

Anyway, next sem takde la malu sgt kalau nak bawa pemberian my dad to the three of us pegi Penang.

Otherwise, I would have this guilty feeling of not fulfilling my words to my dad and mom.

Now that, I fulfill my words, I feel relieve. Alhamdulillah sgt2!

So, I nak ucap kesyukuran kpd Allah for the results that I get.

My dad and mom, sebab pray for my success.

My brother as well.

My sister had played a really good role. She'd helped me a lot, go through all the cryings, the tensions, and all sortta things. Thanks sister. I owe you big. Later ama belanje okie. :)

Tidak lupe Nuha and Balqis. Nuha had given me a very good moral support that I really needed, advices and so much things. I don't how to repay her. She's always there for me. Balqis on the other side, had taught me so much especially in calculus and those subject which we had in common. Thanks guys. So much. Nnti aku belanje korg makan ke. Okay la eh. :))

Then to the lectures, Sakinah, Fasihah, bljr last minutes with them was the greatest study group ever. The were really helpful. Yes, indeed, I get to know things I didn't understand and learn before. Thanks..

Oh so many people to thank. Thank you!! If ade yg tak sebut tu, sorry. Maybe tak igt ye. Korg had been a really good people around me during my sem 4 and finals. Thanks again. :))

ape-ape je lah :)

2010-06-09T17:08:00.001+08:00

Just an update of what I did last weekend. On Saturday.

Keluar bersama Imah, Imran and Ida. Sekali dgn adikku, Iqah.

Went to the curve. All expenses was paid by Imran. Thank you Imran.

Belanje kami Prince of Persia. Woot woot. Been wanting to watch the movie. And plus lunch dekat Popeyes, yang ala ala KFC tu. ;) Thanks again Imran. Hope dpt keluar lg.

Oh yeah, Ima, Ida, Iqah (knp semuanye start dr huruf 'i' ni, adehh. Hehe) and I semua nye gossiping. Seronok dpt spend time with them. Fun fun!

Then Sunday went to their house. Nak visit ateh. Because Ateh nak pergi umrah, my mom wanted to see her before she goes there. Biase la mereka adik-beradik kan, pasti mahu berjumpe. Hope everything goes smoothly utk ateh and uncle wan dekat sane.

Hehe, tu je nak ckp. Mcm boring today, so thought of writing what came across my mind. So this is it.

Till then. Bubye. :)

ps mak aihh, result keluar esok dowh, cuak ness melanda babe.. Takut and good luck to all. :)

random

2010-06-07T23:02:00.000+08:00

I once heard Oprah said something sounded like this. Well, not exactly like this but almost -.-"

It's regarding about your body weight and your self esteem.

"the number doesn't matter, what matter is you feel great and fantastic!"

So anyone who has low self esteem just because you hate your body or whatsoever. Stop being so! You're great and beautiful in every way. Just be yourself and the most important thing is to think positively! :) Enjoy your life while you still can. But, remember you still have to make sure that you stay healthy and be able to do anything you wish to do. Lastly, Have a nice day!

ps I was sick a few days ago. That's not heathly and FUN! Oh yeah, that's for sure! :S

2010-06-02T00:28:00.001+08:00

"mencintai

tidak seharusnya

memiliki.."

heard this some where. It's quite true though.

juni

2010-06-02T00:13:00.005+08:00

Hey! Sudah Juni la skrg ini. Juni dlm bahasa Indonesia, Jun without the 'e' in Malay and June is in English. What am I mumbling here? Hehe. It's been a couple of weeks I haven't post anything. So, how do you do? Hope everything's great and fine! :)

As June has arrived this means my birthday is just around the corner. I'm so not ready to be 20. Oh so not ready!! Hmm, nvm. Just forget about that for a sec. So June akan dipenuhkan dgn getting Atiqah ready as she's entering university by the end of this month. So, I need to accompany her doing the shopping and might as well, shop for my own. Lol. Plus, the medical check up, photostat the stuff that might need to use, etc all those things you gotta have and do before you enter university. And by the end of June, I'm off to Arau, Perlis nak hantar ini budak. Oh, btw, she's going to UiTM Perlis. Hehe. And that's way far from home compared to mine. Padan muke kau!! *Punch. ;)) Wish her the best. Best of luck Dott! That's what's I'm planning for June. Hope everything's going well.

May, was fun. Well, not exactly that fun. I stayed home most of the time. During the day, I make sure I do all the chores at home, so that I won't get nag by my mom. Lol. And at night, go out with my dad and sister to the club. Not that club where you dance and socializing but the club house. Place where you exercise or work out. :) I might go to the gym or swim. And sometimes I do both, I'm not trying to lose weight, get skinny or anything, I just wanna make sure that I don't gain weight and die of boredom by staying at home. Every weekend I go out with my family. We either watch movie or shopping; those typical things you do with your family. ^_^

Oh yeah, ada juge keluar bersama Gang Z. Gosh, I miss them. Sgt lame tak jumpe. Sume still same seperti dahulu. That's what I like. Tp still ade a few I haven't met yet. Harap2 dpt jumpe before the break ends. :)

Went to Cikgu Salmizan's house. Cikgu same mcm dulu jgk. Kaki Gossip lagi kot. Fyi, I learned to gossip from her. Lol. So much fun, man. Mmg gelak all the time. Nak pecah perut listening to her stories.

Also, I went to Ulu Yam with Gang Z jgk. Seronok sgt2. I enjoyed my time with them. We should do it some time again la kawan-kawan. I'm so there. HAHA. :)

Ni gambar girls je. Lelaki pun ade pergi. Tp gmbr mereka tiada. Letak ni pun just nak summarize kan cerita tu je. Sortta. Hehe.

berehat seketika dari alam maya.

2010-05-14T05:19:00.007+08:00

gambar menarik ini dari deviantart.

(berterima kasih kepada atie, kerana promote website ini, thanks atie)

Okay la, igt nak berhenti seketika dari posting any new entries mulai today. Malas nak blogging dah. So buat masa ni, ni la entry yg plg latest dr saye. But I guarantee you, takkan sampai sebulan la, saye tak update blog ini, kalau macam tu baik tak yah buat blog ni kan? Maybe around two or three weeks je kot, tapi I'll make sure bile nak masuk June or dah masuk June, pasti akan ade new entry. Hmm, lgpun who cares about this dull and bored blog, I don't think people nak bace pun about the things I gotta to say in here. Some stupid things, which has got nothing to do with them (maybe la kot.)

I do love to blog about stuffs. Anything! Just love it, but lately ni, mcm ade this feeling which made me feel like not to blog. The feeling yg mcm tak kasi I nak blogging. Hehe. Anyway, skrg ni pun I agak busy. Ade je things to do at home. Ntah ape pun, I myself not sure. But my schedule is quite full. Ade saje activity yg menarik dan memenatkan tapi takpe la. Now, I think I'm loving it because at least I have something to do rather than just stay at home and make myself bigger!

Oh yeah, bukan setakat blog juga saye tak aktif, sekali dgn facebook or any other social networking termasuk juga. Hmm, sbnrnye nak larikan diri dari all these thingy atau dgn org pun mungkin juga :) . Tak nak menghabiskan mase dgn online, tapi kan saye still la bukak jgk, takut ade ape-ape yg penting ke kan, mane la taw.. If you need anything just text me or kalau dah terpakse sgt, just write on my wall and Insya-Allah akan dibalas (bajet mcm diperlukan, haha!).

Rasenye smpai setakat ni je la yg nak diberitahu. Huish, mcm dah nak rindu pulak same ini blog.
Cit Cit, I'm gonna miss you la. ;)

ps I miss my parents so badly :( . Cepat la balik. And jgn la busy-busy sgt, chill-chill sudah. :S

updates :)

2010-05-12T04:33:00.003+08:00

Pheww, what a busy week I had. =.="

I just got back from Penang. Weird huh. Well, I went back to Penang to pack all of my things. I'm moving out from my current rent house to a new rent house as the pharmacy students are on their practical, so basically they won't be our housemates anymore. So I guess things about house is settled and thank god everything goes smoothly. Just to share some stuff, I drove a manual car in which I hadn't drove one since I got my license. Can you imagine me driving a manual car after 2 years. It's really a challenging task given by my two friends; Nuha and Balqis. -,-. Oh btw, I'm no longer a P license driver. Yeay to that! :))

As planned months before, we had our bbq. And yes, it was fun. Totally happening and loud. Our food was de-li-cious babeh. The menu were fried bihun, grilled chicken and sausages and then tersesat plak kerang bakar. Hehe. There were some pretty crazy moments I had with them, and it's something which I'll never forget. Like when Tuty set the bbq on fire, I mean set the bbq with big flame, and at that instance all the sausages were cooked. Haha. Cooked well done. :D. And we were screaming as if Tuty burned down the house. Also we called our neighbors just to help us light up the fire. To my surprise they were quite friendly, helpful and CUTE! lol. We did give some foods as a thank you.. ;P

Before I head home we were shaking hands and hugging each other because this is the last time I'm gonna meet them. Hope to meet them in the future. I wish them best of luck!

Oh yeah. my hair stinks -.-" I can still smell the smoke, even though I've shampooed it. ;)

Not forgetting, I just wanna wish Happy Mother's Day to my mom. She's the best.

*I know it's quite late to wish this but I didn't bring my laptop, that's why I couldn't wish earlier.

at the moment, I'm free from any college books

2010-05-05T01:16:00.001+08:00

Free as the birds. ;))

My fourth semester ended when I finally finished my last paper on Sunday. Now, I'm gonna be home for almost 2 months. Woohooo!

So basically I'm so free from any college books. :)) Free, free, free.

A bit about my two last papers. It was okay. Not expecting to get an A or A- for the two papers.

Fluid was kinda confusing. I admit, I actually knew the mistake I did. But I only noticed the mistake five minutes before the exam ended. -.-"

So it means I didn't get the chance to correct it. But nvm, it has been done. And I'm okay with it.

Thermodynamics! It was a pink colour paper. This means it's actually a tough paper. Alhamdulillah, I was able to do it. Even though I'm not quite sure whether the answer was correct or not.

I tried my best for the two last papers, I gave my all. This is because my carry marks was bad. Like real bad. :(

Anyways, I'm okay now. No more worries about all these stuffs. I'm so done with my fourth semester. Just hoping to get a so-so result. Insya-Allah. :) No repeats pleaseee. :((

Btw, I was just thinking about my fourth semester. I can say it was a hell tough semester. Yes, it was!! :S

Anyhow, I managed to get through it with supports from my families and friends. Thank you people. I love you guys. I do, I really do! Especially to those whom I always share my problems with. :) You guys know who you are! Thank you!

may

2010-05-04T11:23:00.033+08:00

credits to Atiqah :)

Sudah bulan May la rakan-rakan.

Waaa, mase berlalu dgn sgt pantas. Tak sgke dah almost tengah tahun. Huish, skrg dah bulan May tak lame lagi bulan June. Which is my birthday month. Oh noz, dah nak twenny aka twenty. ;)

So, final kali ini habis awal bulan May, so takde la bulan May ni dihabiskan dgn membaca buku. Bapak la, pemalas nye la kau ni Akmar. -.-" Ah nasib la, aku dah penat blajar la, nnti bulan tujuh kite smbung blk eh? Dah, dah malas nak ckp psl belajar2 ni.

Soooo...

Bulan May ni plan nak buat something yg berguna. Belum fikirkan ape die lagi, tp semestinya, some things which TAK AKAN bazir kan mase and wang saye. Dan some thing yg tak berkaitan dgn FOOD. ;D

Yg penting tv TAK AKAN diabaikan.. Weee~

Cukuplah, pasal May, nak ke blkg sikit. Bulan April.. Wah wah wah, bulan yg byk mencabar kesabaran saye. Bulan yg byk mengajar saye ttg liku-liku kehidupan. Bulan yg mengajar saye utk appreciate things or someone. Malas nak cerite psl benda2 tu. Cume bulan April, sgt sgt sgt mengajar saya. Dalam bulan itu la saye bersedih dan berduka. Dan dalam bulan tu jugak la saye gelak dan tertawa. :)

Tp semuanye takkan berlaku tanpa org di sekeliling saye. Mereka byk menentukan emosi saye. Terima kasih saye ucapkan jika anda menggembirakan saye dan terima kasih jgk, jika anda menyebabkan saye menangis. Saye amat menghargainya. Kalau saye ade buat awak tersinggung ke, ape-ape ke, mintak maaf byk-byk. Mungkin saye tak sengaja atau mmg saye sengajakan. Saya bukan manusia sempurna.

Ape-ape pun no hard feeling yeah?

Breakfast at McD!

2010-04-28T04:05:00.001+08:00

Finally, the three of us ate our breakfast at McD together. Usually, Balqis is not around because she doesn't want to follow me and Nuha. Fyi, McD is near our house that's why we always visits McD at anytime we want. :)

So in order for us not to miss the breakfast hours, we had to overnight at McD. Btw, McD has been our favorite spot to study, hang out and chilling especially during the finals. It's were we gossips, laugh and get to know much more people. But most of time we go there to fill in our tummy. :) We love McD.

Our first picture captured in McD since we first came to McD. ;)

The food was delicious. Yummy!!

I'm becoming a weirdo! ;P

2010-04-26T17:52:00.001+08:00

Okay, this is serious matter.

I'm into guys with beard. OMG!

HAHA

Tah sejak bile pulak kan, tetibe je. Ni semua sbb Abg 'Jambang'!!

Suke Abg 'Jambang' yg comel itu! :)

Urghhh~

Baby I am down down down down down.. HAHA

2 down 2 more to go! :)

2010-04-25T21:05:00.000+08:00

Uhuh! I've answered two final papers already. Now, I still have two more papers left.

Not as expected. The first two papers was hell tough! Man damn tough. Especially MAT 243.

ELE 290 was kinda okay. A so-so kinda papers. Still, ther were some blanks in the answers sheets. As I had no idea what to scribbled on the answer sheet. :)

So now I still have Fluid and Thermo. And fyi, my thermo assignment was rejected because I hand in late. Okay, I admit it was my fault and I was so emotional when I knew my assignment had been rejected. But then, when I think on the positive part, it was my fault after all, and a fault that I shoudln't have done. Next time, I won't hand in an overdue assignment. Not anymore. As I hand in the assignment late, I totally lost 5 marks for my carry mark, which actually could help me in my finals. Sigh.

Till then.

Love,

Akmar

when do I say 'I love you!'

2010-04-20T22:09:00.023+08:00

I say I love you when I wanna love you,

I say I love you when I really do love you,

I say I love you when I feel like doing so,

I say I love you not to everyone I know,

I say I love you to someone special to me.

Finally,

I say I love you when I fall in love with you,

;)

ps I hardly say I love you though.

latest heartthrob people ;))

2010-04-10T13:51:00.003+08:00

It's Syamsul Yusof yaww~

Yesyes. Now it's him..

However Sean Faris is still my number one!

picture: courtesy of Syamsul Facebook. :))

Ok, I admit, it's very unusual of me to have a crush for a local artist.

But, I had fallen for him. Man, he's like damn gorgeous. Hehe. I likee!

I've became his fan in Facebook. Sanggup kau!! HAHA

Then I've downloaded his videos and much more. I wanna meet him. Plsplspls..

Ni semua Evolusi KL Drift 2 pny pasal la ni.

Plus, I've been repeating the song he sang which is Apakah Semuanya Itu for several time. ;))

Nak jumpe die boleh?? Heeee

Ps; Can't wait to go home for my study leave. Yeay yeay! :) Confirm tak study ah ni. Hehe.

busy

2010-04-07T22:17:00.002+08:00

There's one more week left then it's my finals.

My first paper is on the first day of the finals. Isn't that just great? : /

Let's forget about the finals for a sec.

Lately, there are so much assignments coming in. One week left and yet so many assignments to be done and tests to be answered. This coming friday I'm having my CSC test, then on Sunday my ELE test.

On next week's Tuesday, I'll be having my Fluid then finally, the last test for this semester is on Thursday and it's Thermo people! Killer subject man..

Ah, tired tired. I have to be strong and not lazy. Well, that's for sure, otherwise, I won't finish all the work and definitely won't study as well.

Damn!

And oh, not to forget.

Here are my final schedule for this semester.

21 April - MAT 235

25 April - ELE 290

28 April - MEC 281

2 May - MEC 251

Only four final papers. Work hard Akmar. Hush hush.

Anyways, I'm the first to finish the finals in my house. Hell Yeah!! HAHA

Dear housemates, be strong okay. I love you guys. XD

Study smart yeah!

picture of the week

2010-04-07T00:15:00.030+08:00

Sorry lambat to upload 'picture of the week'. Busy. Lame tak online. Just online gune phone shj.

Me and my dad dekat A Famosa.

Tetibe teringat kat my dad, ye la, that day balik pun, I didn't get the chance to meet him. He was away.

Td I text my dad and thanks to him, I got my allowance, my dad just bank-in je. Like Yeah!! HAHA

This is the use of technology now a days. It does bring us benefits though ;).

Okay back to the 'picture of this week'. A bit about it, this was last year. Awal tahun. Alaa, tgk rambut I pn dah taw ni gmbr lame, pendek je rambut tu, skrg sudah panjang.. Miss my old hair, nmpk muda! Hehe.

We went to A Famosa for our holiday of the year, since my sister's taking her SPM last year, so we decided to go for an early holiday.

This is me and my dad mase dlm lori tour yg go around the zoo. I can't remember what the lorry's called, lupe. Hehe.

We were stranded dlm zoo tu, almost 30 mins, because minyak habis.. Boleh tak? Then stuck kat dlm kandang harimau, mmg terbaik bukan? HAHA.

Then the employers tu bermatian-matian mengusir all the tigers from getting near us because it seems like the tigers are trying to attack our lorry. Around 30 mins, dorg dah fiiled in the gas, pastu lorry tu pn jalan, everyone escape without any injuries. Haha, mcm bahaya sgt je. -.-"

Btw, it was kinda cool though, we got a few extra time for free to spend with the animals.

It was a nice holiday. I had a great time with my family. And I missed the moments I spent with them here.

It'll be a great memory that I'll never ever forget. Forever!

movie

2010-04-04T03:06:00.001+08:00

Today tgk wyg dgn my mom, Hafiz and Atiqah. My dad isn't around, outstation.

We wanted to watch Clash of the Titan, but the tickets were sold out. So at last we had to watch this movie.

In my opinion it's quite a nice movie. Better than the first one. The stunts were quite cool. I kinda like it actually, even though my brother was complaining kate the movie was kinda 'merepek'. Ah, tak kisah la.

Sam dlm cite ni, sgt klakar. I mean the way die ckp. He reminds me of my kakak sedara when she speaks in this gansgter-cina-style. Sgt klakar! Everytime die berkata-kata je pasti I gelak. Mcm automatic je. Hehe. Pastu Shamsul and Scha dlm cite ni, nmpk sgt suitable and cute together.. Oohhh. ;))

Overall, I can say it's a nice movie, wlpn jln cerita die agk pelik. :)

kindness

2010-04-03T01:55:00.004+08:00

Kindness..

I've met many kind and nice people in less than 24 hours. I thought now a days, only a few people of this kind left in this world; what I meant was there are still people out there whom care for other people.

As I told you in my post before, 2 of my housemates had been admitted in the hospital due to dengue. As a friend I felt responsible to take care of them while they're sick. As I thought of going home this weekend I volunteered to overnight at the hospital to take care of my friend as a replacement for my absence during the weekend. During my stay at the hospital there's this mak cik whom is also a patient at the hospital was very friendly and nice. She offered me her biscuits as she knew I hadn't eaten anything since I came to the hospital. That night I had to sleep on the chair which was obviously uncomfortable, but the mak cik somehow woke up in the middle of the night and invited me to sleep next to her. However, I didn't accept her offer because I didn't want to disturb her. The next morning she offered her fried mee provided by the hospital. And again I didn't accept her offered because the food doesn't seem to be appetising and I don't feel the need to eat. Oh not forgetting the doctors, nurses, trainees and staffs at the hospital were nice and friendly. I can see them working with dedication and patience in dealing with the patients.

Then, I met this tok cik; as she called herself, in the bus during my journey back home. You might see me as a bad or inconsiderate friend because I still could go home even though my friends are in the hospital. But I really can't postponed it, I just need to see my family. This is my responsibility as a daughter. My parents wanted me home badly.. aww sweet kan, and so I kinda promise that I'll go home this weekend. Besides, I really missed my family and again I repeat, I really need to see them. Things happening in Penang is making me so tense. Tok cik was really nice to me. She bought me a keropok ikan and offered me her meehoon that she cooked back home. She chatted with me and she pulled the curtain down while I was sleeping so that the sun ray doesn't hurt my eyes. Moreover, she even invited me to come to her house in Penang which by accident seems to be near my rent house. And she even told me that I looked a bit like her grand daughter. :)) Hehe. Oh, I do hope I could see tok cik again but I'm still thinking of visiting her in Penang. Hmmm..

It was a great pleasure to meet them all. I really appreciate what they've done for me. Thank you. :)

Sincerely, Akmar

fuh fuh

betul betul terlupa nak update blog. *dah October lah*

sekarang emotions mmg tak menentu.

september dah la.

I tak sehebat dia!

this is what jobless-boring-home-person do. :)

dah ade boyfriend?!

August

Ramadhan kembali lagi. :)

tibe-tibe jd mcm ni.. :P

mama anak mama dah besar. :)

I think I've changed!

July babeyh it's July already.

things you should know about me *tu pun kalau nak tahu la, kalau tak nak, takpe lah, ignore je..*

hari ini umur saya sudah 21 tahun

June the month of birthdays.

bertapa syukur nya aku menjadi Akmar Arif

have faith in yourself

random thoughts

masalah-masalah

May. may I have a great May. :D

no april fools for me

short update abt me

alam

I think it's too late for my March (first) entry

stuck in the middle

congratulations to Hamzah and Kak O

February

ni normal. segalanya normal

nak jiwang sikit la kali ni.

dah seminggu kat Penang di thn 2011

2011 is here!! Happy new year!

alahai, cuti dah nak habis la. dangggg!

ape dah jd lately kat aku.

december baby december!

I'm a boring person.

iYiYi ;)

I'm officially no longer a part 5 student. weee.

sweet november

this is what wives and mothers does best. And somehow we still love them.

rumah

childish

skrg saya minat ber-tumblr

done but not quite done yet

friends or lovers. I think it suits both

now

I'm done

pandang-pandang, jeling-jeling

tententen

tuut tett teeeett

octo octo october

impossible

Sorry

It's better to dream than having nothing to do. :D

selamat hari raya aidilfitri semua. :)

September

oh happy life now ;)

Malaysia dah 53 tahun. ;)

bila bosan

ke - jealous - an

Ramadhan

Good deed. ;)

bon appetit! nahh

August :)

Kejujuran

untitle

I am me ;)

july

Sent Atiqah to Arau, Perlis

belated birthday thanks

last few days

It's Fathers' Day la..

oh nozz my teeth

Nur Atiqah

football craze

resultku

ape-ape je lah :)

random

juni

betul betul terlupa nak update blog. dah October lah

things you should know about me tu pun kalau nak tahu la, kalau tak nak, takpe lah, ignore je..